Shit has gone down hill. Real fuckin fast. I'm so worried and afraid. I don't know what's going to happen. This could be it for me, and I don't even really know for sure. My plans for the future, my hopes for success, even my life. Everything is at stake right now ( Read more... )

Workin two jobs... Wawa and JCPenney. I have been saving money. Trying to get my shit in order still. Duno what's going on with life.

Okay, I'm sober. Let's do this. I'm ready for life.

So many racing thoughts. I don't know what to do about it. I'm lonely. I miss Lura, and Fang, too. God, why did they have to move? They should have just stayed here, where they belong. I hate change. I hate it. I want everything to stay the same ( Read more... )

i just want to fade away.

Things are gradually starting to get more and more difficult again. Life is just hard to grasp at the moment and I can't seem to see a future for myself. It's strange. I'm absolutely mortified by the idea of being lonely forever, yet I live in complete and utter solitude. There's no one to blame, but myself. I'm keeping myself back. I'm trying to ( Read more... )

Lose 20 pounds by the end of March. I can do it. 120-125 is my goal.

not having dinner tonight. ate 1/2 of a grilled cheese sandwich today and some spinach, broccoli, and carrots sauteed with one tsp of butter.

too much fat.

So it's 1:00 in the morning. I just ate 1 peanut butter and jelly sandwich and 1 cup of steamed veggies with 2 tsp of butter and about 1 tsp of parmesan cheese. Kinda an odd combination? haha ( Read more... )

Well, after a month long stay in the hospital, I'm finally home. And I've never felt better ( Read more... )