hey everyone, i know some ppl have been checkin on this lately. i just want to let ppl know that everything is goin really good. i am now on medication and goin to counseling too, which is all really helping me out with enjoying life. work is goin really good, im still serving, not workin as much as i at one point but im still gettin enough hrs in ( Read more... )

hey ya'll. just wanting to check in with everyone. well those that read this atleast. im now living out on my own and with some cool guys. the sad part is they all think that im straight. cant help it but i feel weird about tellin them. i know im now back in the closet after everything. but its goin good. we are all gettin along and having a good ( Read more... )

ok just to let everyone know, i am fine. i did not do anything on my last entry. i really wanted to, but i had enough ppl show me that they actually cared that i didnt need to do anything ( Read more... )

i dont even know who reads this or who even cares. but i think this may be the very last entry i ever leave. i just want to say thanks to all of those friends who even consider themselves a friend and yet never call, never want to hang out, never even care. thanks to my family for always never bein there for me. thank you life for keepin me down ( Read more... )

here is another story i wrote for a writing class this term ( Read more... )

well i know its been a long time again since i updated this, so here goes ( Read more... )

here is a story i wrote for my writing class a few weeks ago. last week my teacher asked me to enter it into a writing contest. here goes ( Read more... )

ok yes i do realize i have a few friends who i talk to. i really dont have very many friends at all who i hang out with, and even if i hang out with them this week, doesnt mean i will still be talkin to them in over a week now. i realized tonight on my way home from work why i used to go into chat rooms all the time. i always went in there to feel ( Read more... )

Hey everyone, thanks for all of you who sent me an email letting me know what to do about the guy in cali and doing the modeling, i guess he didnt really want me cause he never emailed me back. i know alot of things have gone on since i really updated my journal, sorry. well right now, i just have one thing on my mind and thats about it, chris. i ( Read more... )

i got this email this morning and im not sure exactly what i should do. i know i need ask him some questions about it and everything, i just dont knwo what questions to ask ( Read more... )