jose
well i know its been a long time again since i updated this, so here goes.
in teh past couple of weeks i have been busy, not really with school but from teh title of this entrie, its about a guy. well most of it will be about jose, not all of it.
three weeks ago tonight, i met jose through a really weird way. i was tryin to hit on his straight friend, well i didnt know he was straight, he was at a gay bar, come on. well anyways, i was introduced to jose through his friend but at the bar, jose and i didnt really talk. later that night, i was at shari's eating with some friends and he went in there to get some food to go. well we ended up stayin the parking lot until 4:45 in the morning.
for the next two weeks, jose and i had hung out every single day. we would go bowling, go eat, or just stay at his place and watch movies. i really enjoy being over there and even when we just lay there watchin tv together, i really like it cause we can atleast be together.
well after seein him for two weeks, i went on vacation to alabama to see family and friends for spring break. needless to say, it was a waste of my money and time. i only enjoyed one day the entire time i was there. the rest of the time i was either doin yard work or goin to church. and to make it worse, on tuesday night, my brother and i went to the evangelist's hotel that was at our church. well pretty much, it came down to the fact that if i stay away from gays, pray about it, and dont think about, then i wont be gay anymore. WRONG! why didnt that work the six years i was fighting it and never once knew another single gay guy then?
anyways, im back in town now and have been for a few days. work is the normal. sucks. and jose and i were out again tonight at the bar having fun dancing. hopefully tomorrow night i will be able to spend the night at his house and no we dont do anything. its really nice cause on the way home tonight from his place, i was thinkin about making out and all. i have wanted to with jose but then i realized that its probably a good thing that we havent cause everytime you make out with someone, you always end up goin a lot further then too.
so to end this entry, i just want to say to all of those of you who read this, which is no one, that its a lot better to go slow in a relationship because for one, you get to know the person and two when you do do something, its more meaningful. i just have to say i am glad that i have met jose because i havent cared for anyone since josh. im just hoping that jose and i dont end like the way things went with josh. well i need to go to bed, have a good night or day or morning, whenever you read this, night, tim
in teh past couple of weeks i have been busy, not really with school but from teh title of this entrie, its about a guy. well most of it will be about jose, not all of it.
three weeks ago tonight, i met jose through a really weird way. i was tryin to hit on his straight friend, well i didnt know he was straight, he was at a gay bar, come on. well anyways, i was introduced to jose through his friend but at the bar, jose and i didnt really talk. later that night, i was at shari's eating with some friends and he went in there to get some food to go. well we ended up stayin the parking lot until 4:45 in the morning.
for the next two weeks, jose and i had hung out every single day. we would go bowling, go eat, or just stay at his place and watch movies. i really enjoy being over there and even when we just lay there watchin tv together, i really like it cause we can atleast be together.
well after seein him for two weeks, i went on vacation to alabama to see family and friends for spring break. needless to say, it was a waste of my money and time. i only enjoyed one day the entire time i was there. the rest of the time i was either doin yard work or goin to church. and to make it worse, on tuesday night, my brother and i went to the evangelist's hotel that was at our church. well pretty much, it came down to the fact that if i stay away from gays, pray about it, and dont think about, then i wont be gay anymore. WRONG! why didnt that work the six years i was fighting it and never once knew another single gay guy then?
anyways, im back in town now and have been for a few days. work is the normal. sucks. and jose and i were out again tonight at the bar having fun dancing. hopefully tomorrow night i will be able to spend the night at his house and no we dont do anything. its really nice cause on the way home tonight from his place, i was thinkin about making out and all. i have wanted to with jose but then i realized that its probably a good thing that we havent cause everytime you make out with someone, you always end up goin a lot further then too.
so to end this entry, i just want to say to all of those of you who read this, which is no one, that its a lot better to go slow in a relationship because for one, you get to know the person and two when you do do something, its more meaningful. i just have to say i am glad that i have met jose because i havent cared for anyone since josh. im just hoping that jose and i dont end like the way things went with josh. well i need to go to bed, have a good night or day or morning, whenever you read this, night, tim