wow, its been a while... things are pretty smooth right now... i have a boyfriend... but i guess right now i am a little sad, i feel like i have messed things up with one friend, miss another friend and wonder if we will ever be as close... and the rest of them... im pushing away, yet again... i dont know what happened... i miss liz insanely... i ( Read more... )

well... first i feel like sharing a song, or rather my faveorite/the most meaningful parts of a few by one of my most favorite bands, The Spill Canvas ( Read more... )

wow... its been a while since i last updated... so yeah, had a shitty flight home, didnt get our stuff for a while, but it came eventually, ive been hanging out with tiff jevon and dorian a lot, still have that major crush of mine, my birthday was good, not all that exciting i know, but hey, i do basically the same thing, just hang out and have a ( Read more... )

so, here i am in california... blah, the trip sucked we didnt get here till 4 am (7 EST) but yeah, its beel like 100 degrees, and apparently humid... i miss all you new yorkers... hows the rain? i wish it would rain... but anywhoo, time to get back to family, anyone can call my cell... please?

Ok, I know, French Camp, sounds boring... right? its not, it was the best week in my life, the things that happened, and the friends that were made, these memories will last a life time ( Read more... )

yet again, its been a while since an update, things are pretty good, life cant be great everyday, there are a few downs, but recently its all up, its sad that i cant hang out with a few people i want to... but someday that will change, hopefully, maybe once i am hapy enough i can figure out a way to hang out with them, without going behind my ( Read more... )

so these things keep going from happy to sad... back and forth. i dont update much... it doesnt hurt anymore... actually... i have a feeling he changed his mind, but eh... w/e im not going to get myself hurt this time. school is almost over... monday then 2 weeks of tests(im only really taking 5 though) 2 on tuesday one wednesday one the following ( Read more... )

wow... it hurts so badly, i like him so much... but itll never happen... today was so wierd... for me... trying to pretend it didnt bother me at all... he didnt see me break down last night, and for that im glad... it was great really... i was comfortable, he didnt want to do anything to make me uncomfortable, didnt want to force me into anything, ( Read more... )

i cant stand him any more... at first he was ok, then he just got annoying... and now i just cant stand him... but blah ( Read more... )

you know how when you lose something you realize how much you took it for granted ( Read more... )