ok, so i constantly disappear then come back, but its nothing new. im staying at my grandmas house for the time being until we can move into our new house. i smell brownies, and its making me sick... anywhoo... there is no signal, and there is no IM all i can really do here is sit on my lazy ass and waste my life away by watching TV. oh how much i ( Read more... )

ok, i know i havnt updated... im constantly arguing again, getting depressed again, i am forcing my self to not have any crushes right now, been thinking about just not talking anymore, 6 times in a row... lalala... mock trial made it to semi-finals at regionals, next year were gonna make it to states, stayed home sick yesterday, stayed home today ( Read more... )

holding hands is a good thing... having no life is a bad thing... i just wish i could go back and erase time and make it right again... but sadly, i cant, and i have to live with the consequences... but hey, what can you do right?... i repeat... holding hands is very good

why does it have to be so confusing... am i love with him? i mean, i dont know, i havnt gone out with him, and he has basically replaced dave, and i was in love with dave... is this a good thing?... im kindof scared...

is it bad when you look at a picture of someone, and want to cry, because you have a feeling something will go extremely wrong?...

ok... he is so... cute... you know the immature things guys do that piss you off?... he does them... and they are cute... anytime i hear voices... i pray its him... do i like him too much? he is comming to my ice show, that is... if i remind him... *sigh* i just... i dont know... every day, i live to here his voice, his laugh, see his eyes, even if ( Read more... )

ok... so here i am at the school... bored, pissed, hungry, tired and i have a headache... yet again he is on my mind... joe told him i like him, joe knew thanks to kurtis... i need to talk to him... see what all actually went on during lunch... im going to make a fool of myself... i hate school... i hate the people... i hate the look feel... ( Read more... )

well... even if he did like me, why would he go out w. me, he is a few years older... he graduates this year... so, he would be gone and... idk, it just seems pointless... though im still gonna like him, im gonna... try to not get attached and whatnot... bc i have some feeling where ill get screwed in the end... but hey, i can lie in these moments ( Read more... )

bah... im so confused... i like him so much... like more than you know who... and i dont know anymore... he seems like he likes me... though i doubt he wants a girlfriend... but then other times... im not sure... i dont know... i wish i did, but im running out of time... i think i might have been a little annoying today... but i was running on very ( Read more... )

why must you be on my mind every second? why must i like you so? you are amazing, perfect, hot, kind, funny... i just get lost every time i see you. shivers run down my spine everytime i think of you... i just wish i could tell you... but im too shy..