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well... even if he did like me, why would he go out w. me, he is a few years older... he graduates this year... so, he would be gone and... idk, it just seems pointless... though im still gonna like him, im gonna... try to not get attached and whatnot... bc i have some feeling where ill get screwed in the end... but hey, i can lie in these moments... im turning around... my outlook on life is improving, im not going to let any past relationships or problems hold me back... i will be hesitant, but im tired of living like this... i want to live alive(makes sense to me) and i want to have the best time of my life, sure some bad things will happen... but... they wont bother me... i have stopped completely, i will not do it.. im clean, have been clean for... almost 2 months... i want my scars to go away though... anyone got any good things that make scars go away?...