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wow, its been a while... things are pretty smooth right now... i have a boyfriend... but i guess right now i am a little sad, i feel like i have messed things up with one friend, miss another friend and wonder if we will ever be as close... and the rest of them... im pushing away, yet again... i dont know what happened... i miss liz insanely... i guess... i long for that relationship again... i think i messed things up with tiff... ive been stupid... and ive been straying from who she thought i was... i dont know... i dont think i can be the good little christian girl she wants me to be... i know she doesnt expect me to be perfect... but i feel like i cant tell her things because of what she believes and then i feel like she will look down on me, i should tell her... but i dont know, its so hard for me to do that... i guess time will tell everything... but i dont want to wait... i hate waiting, i just want to fast foreword my life... i know i shouldnt... but i hate the transition im at right now... eh... i cant do much... i guess ill sit here waiting... yet again, maybe this time... ill make the first move... maybe...