Made it to Greenwich yesterday early enough to see the rare and mystical Noniepants... it was really something special to see her again, I was worried I wouldn't recognize her but it ended being the reverse, she stared straight through me at first lol Her musical talent has grown by leaps and bounds and her voice is soooooo soul full and touching, ( Read more... )

It's a been a real struggle for me but something changed about me... people at work have noticed it, I look healthier all of a sudden and have started putting weight back on... but if people knew the truth why they would really think I'm doomed..... cos there's no telling how long it could last and the initial assumption would be that me smoking a ( Read more... )

Just broke down a bit, it wasn't pretty lol... I just realized my biggest fear. Maybe I need a joint now, sober me is too fragile today.

REAL SPEED MENTAL DISCUSSION ( Read more... )

My head feels seriously fucked from the amount of smoking I've done yesterday and the day before.... but I haven't needed it this bad in a long time, I've been overloaded with weight to my shoulders and I really needed the release. It's helped me avoid a complete emotional breakdown... I think people forget I smoke it to escape R.L sometimes but I ( Read more... )

" Figure since I'm so far gone, oceans away ( Read more... )

Ok, so I've recently broken up with Melody on the grounds that, I don't trust her anymore, It's v. painful to think the way I am. Have I also made a "major mistake"? Serious doubts linger and I can't see light at the end of the tunnel for me at the moment, Im lost..... I hate feeling this way.

xXx Jonny xXx

Well, Ive been and come back. No getting rid of me that easy.... unfortunatly ( Read more... )

Sure I may have sounded unappreciative of her efforts before but now I try and make an effort I get my head bitten off, I can't do anything right it seems so I've blocked her, my turn to ignore her, she's letting me down this time by being so moody when all I've tried to do is fix things and make up for my downfalls ( Read more... )

I have let her down again.... I hate doing that ( Read more... )