Maybe You Thought I'd Left For Germany Already?
Well, Ive been and come back. No getting rid of me that easy.... unfortunatly.
I'm losing interest in updating this it seems, I dont quite know what that means, maybe I'm more secretive now.... whatever the reason is, Im dont know myself so I wont speculate further. I may aswel say a lil something about whats been happening recently in my life, ready? ok. Friday just gone, I woke up with a tennis ball trying force its way in between the sheets of skin in my cheek, in easier words, I was swollen up like a modafuka. Apparently, I was infected with something due to my extremely poor dental hygiene and constant smoking habits, well, I admit, its the most physical pain I've ever had in my entire life, I mean, the pain wasn't as bad as losing an arm or something but it was probably close and what made it worse was that it's constant, meaning, no matter what I did I was in pain and even pain killers only dulled it, this reduced me to a blubbering ball of patheticness and not being able to afford private or NHS care I really felt lost, I just wanted to die.
In the end my mum found me a place at a trainee dentist place in Whitechapel, we went and they were suprised that I had let the pain bother me this long, since it had been building up for weeks and it was no longer just the infected tooth which was the problem, 5 teeth must be removed but because of the massive swelling and the serious infection I couldn't just take the tooth out that was bothering me, so they put me on antibiotics told me to come back in a few days, at this point I felt more than let down and lost since I was still in pain and it seemed like there was no way of getting rid of the pain any time soon. The next few days were really hard for me, I couldnt eat anything (NOTHING) and could only drink warm water, I couldnt sleep unless I almost OD'd myself on painkillers and on top of all this, me and Melody we're really starting to argue, which came to a head tonight but I wont expand on that, sticking on subject of teeth for now.
Finally the day of the extraction came and I honestly felt like I was gonna get fixed, I go in and I actually enjoyed having the teeth out since the students that done it were really funny but at the same time took it really seriously. They checked me over and they decide that they can't take all 5 out at once, 3 now, 2 in 3 weeks. GAH!. But OK!!! at least its happening. Remember, Ive not been eating, its been 4 days straight for me without food at this point and they're worried about me fainting on them due to lack of sugar, they were sweet enough, I decided to stay awake for em no matter what lol but I lost alot of blood, more than the average joe they said and I almost fainted on the way out. Still I felt soooo much better, unfortunatly it presented new problems, no smoking for 3 days after (not really that bad considering I hadnt smoked since I swelled up), Blood in my mouth for 2 days after (im on my second day now) and its soo hard to sleep with blood in your mouth, not being allowed to spit it out made swallowing it the only other option to me, which is EEEWWWWW!!! Not nice at all, Oh!! and I was still swollen up quite a bit so lets just say, I didnt sleep.
The biggest problem with it all though is that I hadn't eaten ANYTHING for 6 days, I tried soup but even that was painful. I fear now that not only my dental health has suffered, I am more of a twig than ever, I lost weight everywhere and I have trouble putting it on so I must be really careful not to over do things....... on the other hand, im soooo bored of just lying about. Work doesnt want me working while im like this but I miss work so much it been really hard, I feel like Im letting them down cos Ive taken next week off since Melody's down so now ive unintentionally taken 2 weeks off after just coming back from a 2 week holiday in germany.... I cant believe they still want me working there tbh but I really hope they keep me nonetheless and regardless of this, after all, I didn't ask for all this pain and suffering, it's just further proof of the lack of a GOD. Anyways, Im on the road to recovery now, Melody comes tomorrow and I gotta start thinking about her and not just my poor gummi self. I really hope the swellings gone at least.
To be honest, I only really wanted to come on to put some lyrics in, it seems I got a bit side-tracked. This song I heard on TV late one night, Ive heard the singer before but tbh her voice really annoyed me in the other song but in this song.... the voice fits the music really well. It reminds me of Melody and I really love it.
Corinne Bailey Rae - Just Like A Star
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honoured to love you,
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,
I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands.
END
Well thats it from me for a couple of months probably. There's enough here to make someone read for a month though I guess.
xXx Love Jonny xXx
I'm losing interest in updating this it seems, I dont quite know what that means, maybe I'm more secretive now.... whatever the reason is, Im dont know myself so I wont speculate further. I may aswel say a lil something about whats been happening recently in my life, ready? ok. Friday just gone, I woke up with a tennis ball trying force its way in between the sheets of skin in my cheek, in easier words, I was swollen up like a modafuka. Apparently, I was infected with something due to my extremely poor dental hygiene and constant smoking habits, well, I admit, its the most physical pain I've ever had in my entire life, I mean, the pain wasn't as bad as losing an arm or something but it was probably close and what made it worse was that it's constant, meaning, no matter what I did I was in pain and even pain killers only dulled it, this reduced me to a blubbering ball of patheticness and not being able to afford private or NHS care I really felt lost, I just wanted to die.
In the end my mum found me a place at a trainee dentist place in Whitechapel, we went and they were suprised that I had let the pain bother me this long, since it had been building up for weeks and it was no longer just the infected tooth which was the problem, 5 teeth must be removed but because of the massive swelling and the serious infection I couldn't just take the tooth out that was bothering me, so they put me on antibiotics told me to come back in a few days, at this point I felt more than let down and lost since I was still in pain and it seemed like there was no way of getting rid of the pain any time soon. The next few days were really hard for me, I couldnt eat anything (NOTHING) and could only drink warm water, I couldnt sleep unless I almost OD'd myself on painkillers and on top of all this, me and Melody we're really starting to argue, which came to a head tonight but I wont expand on that, sticking on subject of teeth for now.
Finally the day of the extraction came and I honestly felt like I was gonna get fixed, I go in and I actually enjoyed having the teeth out since the students that done it were really funny but at the same time took it really seriously. They checked me over and they decide that they can't take all 5 out at once, 3 now, 2 in 3 weeks. GAH!. But OK!!! at least its happening. Remember, Ive not been eating, its been 4 days straight for me without food at this point and they're worried about me fainting on them due to lack of sugar, they were sweet enough, I decided to stay awake for em no matter what lol but I lost alot of blood, more than the average joe they said and I almost fainted on the way out. Still I felt soooo much better, unfortunatly it presented new problems, no smoking for 3 days after (not really that bad considering I hadnt smoked since I swelled up), Blood in my mouth for 2 days after (im on my second day now) and its soo hard to sleep with blood in your mouth, not being allowed to spit it out made swallowing it the only other option to me, which is EEEWWWWW!!! Not nice at all, Oh!! and I was still swollen up quite a bit so lets just say, I didnt sleep.
The biggest problem with it all though is that I hadn't eaten ANYTHING for 6 days, I tried soup but even that was painful. I fear now that not only my dental health has suffered, I am more of a twig than ever, I lost weight everywhere and I have trouble putting it on so I must be really careful not to over do things....... on the other hand, im soooo bored of just lying about. Work doesnt want me working while im like this but I miss work so much it been really hard, I feel like Im letting them down cos Ive taken next week off since Melody's down so now ive unintentionally taken 2 weeks off after just coming back from a 2 week holiday in germany.... I cant believe they still want me working there tbh but I really hope they keep me nonetheless and regardless of this, after all, I didn't ask for all this pain and suffering, it's just further proof of the lack of a GOD. Anyways, Im on the road to recovery now, Melody comes tomorrow and I gotta start thinking about her and not just my poor gummi self. I really hope the swellings gone at least.
To be honest, I only really wanted to come on to put some lyrics in, it seems I got a bit side-tracked. This song I heard on TV late one night, Ive heard the singer before but tbh her voice really annoyed me in the other song but in this song.... the voice fits the music really well. It reminds me of Melody and I really love it.
Corinne Bailey Rae - Just Like A Star
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Honoured to love you,
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh...
Your love,
Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,
I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,
Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands.
END
Well thats it from me for a couple of months probably. There's enough here to make someone read for a month though I guess.
xXx Love Jonny xXx