Don't blink or you just may miss it all. When did months turn into years that last as long as days. To many to count. Numbers left unsent letters left unread . It's like a made for tv movie you never meant to watch. Lifetime a channel for women over forty and still breathing a life not worth living. I'm standing on the edge and I've been here ( Read more... )

i feel good. ive felt very sick lately its been very hard and losing my job and still trying to keep my head and take care of myself with the meds. my faith has given me much strength. ive never felt closer to god. with church and community group and reading more scripture. im not perfect in any way but i will try to be closer to god. and be a ( Read more... )

I've been an avid magic the gathering player for years. One thing in magic I've never had a chance to do is play in the state champs. up until 2009 you had to play in the state you lived i live in Indiana so even though I've been ranked in the top 50 players in the state of Kentucky for over four years I've never been allowed to play. last year i ( Read more... )

They remade i spit on your grave. im super excited. im hoping for more bad effects and even worse acting. must see. bye

for now.

god opened my heart to jesus. i know to some of you this may be a strange thing to hear me say. after being an atheist and agnostic my entire life i found god. I hate that expression but i can also say that jesus touched my life. i felt this pull towards the end of my relationship with amber. i was to afraid to tell her of fear that she may leave ( Read more... )

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these songs are all amazing and have meant something to me in my life. i dunno they have all been buzzing in my head all day. i know it's crazy but sometimes songs haunt you. especially the last two. both in two different ways.

bye for now.

well, so i got a new job starting on September 7th. AT&T is gonna be experience. I'm nervous and excited. It's the most money I've ever made 16.66 an hour plus bonuses. That is a lot of money which is much needed. It will be awesome to be the bread winner in the house. haha I love trinity and her hard work but I'm ready to take that load off her ( Read more... )

OK so if you don't know for the last month I've been in and out of the hospital. I'm so close to going crazy from all this. My diverticlitus has been flaring up which is funny sense i had surgery last month to remove over a foot and half of my colon which i was told would cure this. after 5 weeks i felt like i was recovered off pain meds and i was ( Read more... )

this can't be my Saturday night over. it's Sunday and I'm daydreaming of your voice. he gave me the heart to starve for your real life fantasy. where can i go from here. being in my sick sad cloud the scar on my belly leaves the pain only the pills can sing to sleep. but it's a savage morning waiting for me all alone. she works while i suffer. don' ( Read more... )

blinded by pain my face shakes no position is right when i lay stand sit still it just isn't getting it anymore. the saviors aren't saving me anymore. the stars aren't falling for you and i. the blinds that quarantine me from the sun its to hard to walk and its takes to long to talk. im all out of explanations i just have the shrugs of my shoulders ( Read more... )