I had a really bad night last night after i got off my AIM. I cried for such a very long time (in fact it had been the first time in a long time i cried myself to sleep) about something that after the 9th grade i said i would never cry about. And i had done very well up until last night. You see i hate the fatc that i can't get any guy to really ( Read more... )

I am so confused right now. I feel very lost. Its kind of like i don't know if its ok to just be me anymore. Because the me that i am seems to get into a lot of fights and has problems that no one seems to care about. I am sick and my parents look the other way. And i just really don't know what to do with myself. I don't want to sink in this dark ( Read more... )

What a weekend. I think i saw almost every single one of my friends this weekend. Which is cool bc i never really get to do that. I saw Dana and Chris on friday and Stacey and JJ and Tara and Saturday. Oh boy that was a trip. Ypu see Tara got a "a little tipsy" and we all went to Denny's. And there was a group of about 6 guys at the table next to ( Read more... )

I want to cry but the tears won't come ( Read more... )

I can't stand my brother he treats me so bad. If anyone is going to drive me to cut myself again its going to be him...and ot my mother. But we'll just not get into that at the moment. ( Read more... )

Ok me and a friend driving 4 drunk 16 year olds around. That was just not fun. Me watching that same friend get into a tiff with another friend...that was fun. And then i watched two more friends go at it. While i am nice and in the middle. You know i think i really really hate it there. I WANT OUT! And dammit i want to stop having to pick sides. ( Read more... )

When did i become the cause of everyone's problems?

So life is just kind of fucking up in the air right now. Going through a lot of shit. My dad wants me to move out of my mom's house bc he sees what it is doing to me. What he wants to do is have me get my liscense and move out into a place of my own. Which is cool bc i'm 18 its time for me to be out on my mom and away from my crazy mother.

Lol voting sucks i hate it i never want to do it again. ok now thats that out i think things have been going ok. I've been really good for too long. I need to break out and soon. Or else its just all going to build up and then everyone including myself will be in big trouble. Ok well i just wanted to give a hello to everyone and i hope everyone is ( Read more... )

So school is ok i guess but it sucks too. I hate being so lost in some of my clsses its not even funny...well it might be to others lol but not to me. So i'm trying to get my friend Dana to come to a club with me and right now i am having 0 luck with it. She doesn't know how to dance she says but she does. I guess i'll just have to drag her ass out ( Read more... )