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[starsnmoons587]

I had a really bad night last night after i got off my AIM. I cried for such a very long time (in fact it had been the first time in a long time i cried myself to sleep) about something that after the 9th grade i said i would never cry about. And i had done very well up until last night. You see i hate the fatc that i can't get any guy to really

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[toast03]

wow, ur in a big dilemma right now, i thought i was in the shits with having epilepsy. but i guess i was a lil wrong, it seems like u have an extreme case of depression. i mean i went through depression as a kid, but it wasnt as bad as u. yea, i was a trouble some kid but it was the only way i could let it out. there is prolly someone who is willing to sit there and listen to u, no matter how many times u call them. i mean i would do it for my friends. some of my friends who have known mw long enough, know that i am usually the one person they can turn to with their problems. and i usually help them too. as for the guy thing. there is a guy who is prolly juss as shy as you, who prolly likes u but has no clue in the world how to approach u and say sumthin. i was like that for the longest time. there were even times where it even took me months before i actually asked the person out. and i still do it till this day. (but im not as shy) yea, i think it takes me at least 3 months to actually say sumthin or to get the person to notice

[starsnmoons587]

You have just brought the biggest smile to my face. If i could get to you i would give you the biggest hug in the world and say thank you a thousand time over. So thank you times a thousand. You have made my heart a little lighter and this dark day a little brighter and i thank you from the center of my heart for that.

[toast03]

no prob, thats what im here for, i can be the biggest friend that anyone has. maybe thats y my best freind and i have been friends for so long. anyways, yea, if u need anything else from me, juss ask, i should b there 4 ya.

[starsnmoons587]

Lol thanks...once again

[rek2005]

i can relate to u on the shy part. i suffer serverely from social anxiety. i have to get a friend to go buy my food everyday at lunch and break because I can't walk in front of the people to get it. i hope things get better. don't cut urself though. things will get better; just give it time.

[starsnmoons587]

lol i hope so. I have been doing really good with not cutting myself. Its almost been 90 days. YAY!

[toast03]

ouch, that sucks, i thought epilepsy was bad enough. but at least ur friend helps ya out.

[water_fairy717]

I agree i have a great bunch of friends that i thought i was being a bother too. And they all read this enrty and threatened to kill me if i ever pulled something like this again....and for some reason it made me feel so much better.

[evilwhitemale]

Don't cut yourself. Don't take a bunch of pills. Don't let those sickos who tormented you win. You see,people like that are covering up for their own deep-seated self-hatred. They know deep inside that you are better than them in some way. This makes them jealous. They want to try and drag you down to their level or even farther.

Don't let them do that.

And if you can't reach a friend on the phone for whatever reason,check in the Yellow Pages for Suicide prevention Hotlines. They're open 24 hours a day with people who won't judge you or be mean to you. They just want to keep you from doing something you can't undo.

And you know what else? Maybe you SHOULD go to your parents and jump up and down and make a scene that they can't ignore. You have a right to do that. Do anything you have to in order to get the help you need,ok? You owe it to yourself.

[starsnmoons587]

Lol a lot easier said then done. but i have decided to go back into therapy. Which should be Ok. And i'm working on a way to get my parents to notice something is wrong...without screaming at the top of my lungs. but i will if i need too.

[evilwhitemale]

Chin up,kiddo. Anything,so long as you're safe. I mentioned you in my journal,btw. I hope you don't mind. But if you do,I'll go back and delete the post. I promise.

[starsnmoons587]

No i don't mind. In fact i want to thank you for it. Its nice to know that you thought of me and ask people to leave me comments and you didn't have to. You went an extra step and that means a lot to me.