hi.
i'm updating.
stonehill's nice.
back to school...more work.
i don't make money anymore.
i still like jimmy. (cause i know he may be one of the only few who read this)
i miss the past two months when i did NOTHING.
love, ashley.

i'm sick of starting fights. cause i do it like...every week. i can become this selfish snob sometimes and i hate it. i start stupid fights over stupid stuff and i don't realize how dumb i am until afterwards.
then i go into this mood where i never ever wanna argue again and hate myself for hours/days because these fights are my fault.
ughhhhhhhh i ( Read more... )

i want to keep trying...but why can't you keep trying too?

i try to act like it doesn't hurt and that it's not on my mind but every minute, i'm trying to get over it, to not feel hurt and not show it.
but i'm hurt...so much.
and i know i hurt you too in the same way and i'm sorry if you ever felt like how i do now.
i never meant it but it hurts so ( Read more... )

here's one thing i don't like:

some people tend to point out the bad things instead of the good things. like you can do something good or impress someone but they won't say a word about it...but the minute you do something bad or disappoint someone, they comment on it right away. it doesn't do any good when you only point out the negative and don't ( Read more... )

my bra is still missing. everyone has looked everywhere for it and it's gone.
whatever.
the only conclusion left is that the washer or dryer ate it. or little men came and took it away cause they wanted my bra.

i went to the beach today with jimmy.
it was amazing. incredibly fun. yup.
i still smell like the beach though.

i'm exhausted.

tomorrow is ( Read more... )

so last night, jimmy and i played in the rain. with mud.
it was really soo much fun. i actually liked it a lot...i'm glad he came up with the idea.
i was covered in mud and very very dirty. and all of a sudden, i didn't care that i spent 10 minutes before going over touching up my hair or make up. and i didn't care about my clothes, jewelry or ( Read more... )

hi.
i'm kinda in a good mood right now.
i need to change my clothes. i feel kinda dirty and messy.
i think it's cause of the weather.
i've had a headache since 12 today. i didn't take anything cause i basically live on excedrin but it never went away. so i gave in after 7 hours and took something.
i don't know why i get them or why they stay. i hate ( Read more... )

hi.
i'm ashley. and i'm confused.

...confused isn't the right word cause i'm actually really not confused but i can't come up with a better one right now...

it stinks to be hurt and sad.
it just really stinks when you feel so hurt and feel so sad...like so down.

did you know i've kissed the same guy for the past 1 year and 4 months?
did you know i haven't kissed anyone else except for that same guy for the past 1 year and 4 months?

i guess it'd just be nice to feel loved. to not feel alone. to feel ( Read more... )

i got my first paycheck yesterday. yay. it was kinda cool, i was happy. i went to the bank today and waited in a line of 46548913 people...or 6. but it was long.

i was watching tennis yesterday. only one of the players/guys grunted/made noise when he hit the ball every single time/play. it was funny because i could've watched tennis with my eyes ( Read more... )