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i want to keep trying...but why can't you keep trying too?
i try to act like it doesn't hurt and that it's not on my mind but every minute, i'm trying to get over it, to not feel hurt and not show it.
but i'm hurt...so much.
and i know i hurt you too in the same way and i'm sorry if you ever felt like how i do now.
i never meant it but it hurts so much.
and i'm sorry.
but i'm torn and i want things back to how they were and i want you and i want us and i want to hold your hand and not feel weird and i want to kiss you and i want to leave you but i don't and i want to stop talking to you but i don't and i don't wanna see you but i do so bad. and i can't decide.
and i wish you could make up your mind and i wish i felt loved and wanted.
and i wish this hurt would go away. and i wish you could actually prove me wrong one day. and i wish i could feel how i felt a week ago.
and i wish you could want what i want. and i wish you would change your mind.