I haven't posted anything for a couple weeks now. I have been feeling pretty good with myself lately,  but today... or more so tonight I just feel so alone. I know its not the case and I have friends and family that are there for me. its just its almost like nobody wants to do anything unless its convenient for them.

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It's been a rough few days. I broke down a few times today. I think alot of it comes from me keeping my feelings in and just bottling everything up inside. I've come to realize its not healthy for me. I now know I have a few friends there I can talk to and vent, but it's still feels weird opening up and talking to somebody about it. I've gone so ( Read more... )

So today I went out on a limb and confirmed some suspicions that I've had for a while... I don't know if I'm happy to have found out or if I would be happy living in the dream... So I finally texted the woman I have a crush on and basically came out and asked her. She keeps telling me she's not ready for a relationship, but there were little things ( Read more... )

I am at a crossroad and I'm not sure what path to take. It is in regards to this weekend. Do I stay go to visit my family in northern Minnesota. Or do I stay home and hope to see the girl I have a crush on. The peoplem is I want to do both, but there is no possible way to do both.

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I'm still kind of shocked over what I did this afternoon. I texted my ex girlfriend to see if she would meet up for some supper. She didn't and that was no surprise to me. She texted back telling me to stop texting her, and she seemed pretty upset that I tried taking to her. Just so everybody is on the same page I wasn't trying to get back together ( Read more... )

So all day I had things running through my head that I wanted to tell this girl in person instead of texts. Then I do see her for a few minutes tonight and I forget everything I wanted to say. The sad part about all of this is that seeing her for those 5 minutes completely made my whole day. I can hardly make it a few days without seeing her and I ( Read more... )

I haven't put anything up on here in years, and for the most part I didn't really care. Though as of lately I have all these thoughts running through my head and nobody I really feel comfortable talking to. I just hope by getting this out of my head it helps clear my head. These thoughts have been building since May. Again since I don't care if ( Read more... )

Look at this shit. Its closing time ahd here I am again drunk as fuck. I went up to the bar only planning on spending a few housrs up therre and here I am getting home over nine hours later, spending way more than i wanted to and getting just smashed. All I wanted to do was have a few drinks while Jess was working, then head over to David's ( Read more... )

Wow I think that 2006 might possibly be the best year ever. As it turns out, as of Monday I just won a Hooters prize pack. Including 50 wings and a Hooters t-shirt. That makes Monday a better day than I thought. Mainly cuz I was extremely hungover on Monday. On Sunday I went to the ALS at like 2:30 and didn't leace until closing time, which ( Read more... )

I am so bored right now it's not even funny. I'm 21 years old and I'm sitting home on a Saturday night. Ive been drunk every night since I turned 21, and to be completely honest with you I wish I was sitting in a bar drinking right now. Actually I would even love to be out drinking with friends. The past two nights I have been up drinking until ( Read more... )