oh, by the way. he left me & never came back. I have raised his son alone.

is anyone still listening? my life is a mess. does anyone care?

I hate waiting around for people. Like, I've never been good at it. I think I get that from my mom. I'm just so sick of waiting. I feel like I'm waiting all the time. Waiting for my life to start, waiting for people to forgive me, waiting for a second chance, waiting for a better me, waiting for a better life. But really, I'm sick of waiting ( Read more... )

& in the blink of an eye, shit sucks.. again.
Justin broke up with me.
I should have known it would happen.
I'm stuck.

It's amazing how things change.
Things are actually good now.
It's like in the blink of an eye things turn to shit & then another blink & its all ok again.
I have a new boyfriend.
His name is Justin.
He makes me smile.
Thats all I needed.

Nothing I do is ever right.

Fuck boys.
Fuck liars.
Fuck cheaters.
Fuck her.
Fuck love.
It's all one big fucking lie.

"Did you know your Adam's apple shakes when you're judgemental?"
Oh man Saved by the Bell is on.
This is the only reason why I'm happy not to be in school.
Well aside from the whole not being there thing.

So Thursday was prom. It was fun times. Bobby looked amazing. Everyone did actually [see link at the end for the picturesssss]. Afterwards we all ( Read more... )

I don't know if any of you know this about me but I am a terrible girlfriend. I don't do anything right & all I do is get mad at him. I can't help myself though. I'm pathetic. I love him though & all my actions are doing is pushing him away. I'm going to fuck this up I'm sure of it.

I threw a stone down at the reflection of my image in the water
& it althogether disappeared
I burst
It shattered me like a bullet through a bottle
& I'm expected to believe that any of this is real