Crumbling

[spyridona]

I feel like I'm crumbling again. I'm so disappointed in my artwork these past few weeks. I'm disappointed with things going outside my online life.

I just... I feel bad and I feel bad for admitting how much I'm hurting. I'm scared to tell someone face to face or something as simple as PM in fear of people thinking me as weak or a whiner or

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[beckyh2112]

*hugs hard* I love you, babe, and I am always here if you need me.

[fire_lord_azula]

I haven't known you for very long, so I hope this doesn't come across as invasive or awkward, but I feel compelled to say something.

First of all, I'm saddened by how you're feeling.  I don't know the extent of your situation, but I'm familiar with disappointment.  The sense of hopelessness; that nothing is going right... it's a painful place to be, and it's always hurtful to see someone who means something to me go through that.  And as hard as it is, perhaps you should talk to someone you trust about this.  I understand your reluctance, but reassurance and support can be a blessing.

I'm scared to tell someone face to face or something as simple as PM in fear of people thinking me as weak or a whiner or attention seeking or being passive aggressive.

That's not how I define weakness.  I've had the displeasure of interacting with weak people (both online and offline), and I can assure you, they epitomize whining, attention-seeking, and passive-aggressiveness.  I actually think it takes an admirable amount of courage to admit what

[comixologist]

*EPIC HUG* Oh, darlin' D: I'm thinking good thoughts in your direction. ♥

[weirdlet]

*hugs* I've felt like that too, or at least similar. It's not fun- the best thing you can do (in my experience, anyway) is take care of yourself, let people know you're hurting, and put a pause on the things you feel are disappointing you. Not a stop- just take a bit to see where you are and where you want to be.

[weirdlet]

Addendum at way too early in the morning- healthy selfishness is good, and it's not whining if you're politely letting folks know that something's up.