About seventeen and a half years ago, my grandfather died. This may not mean much, but my father, grandmother, and grandfather raised me. In order to help me grieve, my grandmother thought it would be nice to get me a cat. He was a tiny thing, flea bitten, full of attitude, and barely eight weeks old. He was the lone survivor of his litter and with ( Read more... )

Oh god, why did I make the deadline for the crackfic pinch hitting the 14th? Same fucking day as my birthday. And then this meeting where I might have to lose my job (no proof of this, but I'm over worried because nothing turns out good for me on my birthday) and I... I...

I hate my birthday.

I feel like I'm crumbling again. I'm so disappointed in my artwork these past few weeks. I'm disappointed with things going outside my online life.

I just... I feel bad and I feel bad for admitting how much I'm hurting. I'm scared to tell someone face to face or something as simple as PM in fear of people thinking me as weak or a whiner or ( Read more... )

I want to tear someone's head off. I suddenly absolutely fucking hate the world because people are disappointing me.

In fucking everything.

The doctor's love to lie. My uncle informed me my aunt has about a week to live.

I'm kinda numb now, I really can't cry. I'm seeing her tomorrow.

Updates:

The Phone InterviewThem: "Why aren't you trying to apply as a lead teacher ( Read more... )

Today is going to be busy, but not a good one. Being busy in the evening should be fun, but it's canceled out due to the afternoon. I have to see my aunt today, she was diagnosed with bone cancer and hasn't been eating so she's at the hospital. My mother died about five years back, so I've gotten close to my aunt ( Read more... )

So, I'm feeling depressed again. Anyone mind me IMing them in the near future? I really need to branch out more, I realized I'm not commuicating with people.