Crumbling

[spyridona]

I feel like I'm crumbling again. I'm so disappointed in my artwork these past few weeks. I'm disappointed with things going outside my online life.

I just... I feel bad and I feel bad for admitting how much I'm hurting. I'm scared to tell someone face to face or something as simple as PM in fear of people thinking me as weak or a whiner or

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[fire_lord_azula]

I haven't known you for very long, so I hope this doesn't come across as invasive or awkward, but I feel compelled to say something.

First of all, I'm saddened by how you're feeling.  I don't know the extent of your situation, but I'm familiar with disappointment.  The sense of hopelessness; that nothing is going right... it's a painful place to be, and it's always hurtful to see someone who means something to me go through that.  And as hard as it is, perhaps you should talk to someone you trust about this.  I understand your reluctance, but reassurance and support can be a blessing.

I'm scared to tell someone face to face or something as simple as PM in fear of people thinking me as weak or a whiner or attention seeking or being passive aggressive.

That's not how I define weakness.  I've had the displeasure of interacting with weak people (both online and offline), and I can assure you, they epitomize whining, attention-seeking, and passive-aggressiveness.  I actually think it takes an admirable amount of courage to admit what you have in this entry.  You might not feel strong in doing so, but I want you to know that, for what it's worth, I think you are.

I'm sincerely hoping your situation changes, and soon.  I'll be thinking about you and wishing for the best.