Perhaps I hinder people's lives. It seems as though once people toss me aside, their lives get so much better. Does my lack of presence make lives worth living for others? Believe me, I'm thankful for those who have let me forget about them and come back when I came to my senses. It's the ones who have forgotten me that hurts more. Makes sense ( Read more... )

It's amazing how a day can go. I had a pretty average day today starting out. Went to bed at 7am. Slept on the damn couch since some of the fam is here. I don't really care about that though. That's just part of fam coming over. Plans were all made to go up to Broadripple. Hung out with the family. Ate some Lucky Charms. Ate some fruit. ( Read more... )

What I really want to do is start writing about a bunch of shit. To what end? There is none until life is ended. This is not some suicidal thought or anything. I just usually write and see where it takes me. I miss Casey. I miss a lot of things. I am a firm believer in the "you never fully appreciate things until they are gone" type quote. ( Read more... )

So I need to tell an unbelievable story about what happened to me tonight. After work, I dropped Russel off to his home so he could hang out with his girlfriend...cool. Went home, bathed and stole my mother's new Harry Potter book...yes I'm a nerd. After a i gathered a few bucks to go get some food since I haven't eaten in a few days, I headed ( Read more... )

There has been a lot running or walking or meandering through my head as of late. Before I get into that though, I'm going to get some more booze and my cigarettes. I'll be back. Not that you'll know the difference. Just to start this all off, I am going to be more than likely bitching and keep that in mind. Unless a specific name or nickname ( Read more... )

So, I was listening to the Eels song "Saturday Morning" whilst it is in fact, Saturday morning. Needless to say, I decided to update. Any writers out there? Or at least anyone who fancies themselves a writer? I have been having this problem recently with having a great idea and not writing it down, then when I sit down to write, being blank for ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've updated. Well, not too long I'm sure, but, some people out there don't know current things with me and I'm guessing that is because I don't see you enough and you read this. I have moved away from downtown. I got laid off from my chef job. I don't have any savings accounts and therefore no, money saved for such an ( Read more... )

So, seriously. Looking at naked suicide girls....not good for me. I love photography, fetish photography, the female body, the naked female body, and people watching. So add all this together, naked suicide girls. Boo to that though. I am damn sure that i would hate HATE going to a strip club. I have awesome self-control, don't get me wrong, ( Read more... )

So, set myself up for a few more letdowns. You set it up, I'll knock it down. I can't stop my mind-from trying to find-the right one for me. I can't stop my eyes-from trying to see-the right one for me. On the walk out, I dropped my smoke, you left your purse. I carried you, on my back. After our hug, you smacked my back. You took some, ( Read more... )

Black out ( Read more... )