So its been a while since I posted on here because I've been trying to get out of this and try to recover and try to think of food differently. It really hasn't worked I've been eating at least 3 times a day for the past 3 weeks but I feel so guilty and I'm to chicken to purge but I figured if I got into the habit again I would feel ok about it but ( Read more... )

my world is about to crash around me I know it. Everyone has been freaking out lately and I just don't know how much longer I can hide this its become every aspect of my life and its all I ever really think about anymore. I haven't been going to school lately because its hard to explain and it may sound stupid but I'm so scared to I hate being ( Read more... )

Hey everyone I haven't posted in a while but its been a terrible day. My best friend took me to breakfast and I had to eat but then I thought well its early so its ok but then I went to work and I work at a restraunt so I ate before I went to work which was about 3:30 and I just home a little while ago I can only hope I burnt most of it off. But ( Read more... )

I'm getting excited and more motivated Wednesday was one of the worse days I've had in a while I ate probably about 1800-2000 cals it was really bad but then yesterday I did good I had about 300 or so cals and today I've had about 450-500. I'm starting out on the 2468 diet but this morning when I ate I got something I could usually eat with no ( Read more... )

So last night was my best friend's 18th birthday party and I drank I don't want to even think about how many calories and all of us had to go to Waffle House and of course I ordered like a patty melt and hashbrowns and ate that I don't really know why but I got scared b/c everyone was around and stuff and I don't want people to find out that I ( Read more... )

Hi everyone so I haven't been here on a while my mom started noticing and freaked out threatening me so I had to stop and its been sooo depressing ugh I'm really a fat cow now I've been scared to even go look at the scale *sigh* but I did get a job and I get home at night and I just have time enough to take a shower and stuff and its easier to get ( Read more... )

So I spent the weekend with my cousin and it was fun and all but like I had to eat four million times blah I don't even want to list what all I had to eat but this was from Friday to today and I feel like I ate enough for 3 weeks and I had a lot of bad stuff too nothing really healthy ugh!!! And I start school tommorow which sucks really bad and I' ( Read more... )

So I just got done eating dinner it was terrible. My mom actually cooked so I had to eat I did do alright though I was able to fast for 24 hours because the last time I had eaten was about 7:30 pm and I ate at 8 tonight but we had chicken alfredo noodles and peaches for desert. I didn't eat a lot but my mom kept asking did you have enough? I just ( Read more... )

So its offically Thursday now last time I had something was at 7:30 pm I had a Moolatte I don't even want to talk about it I'm not so depressed anymore I'm starting a two day fast tommorow super excited I really want to lose 4 pounds before Monday I'm not sure if I can do it but I'm definitely going to try. I'm going to try to start walking ( Read more... )

So its almost 4:30 and I just ate my last thing for the day. I didn't do terrible but I didn't do so well either. Last night was really hard though I went to bed about 2 am and I hadn't eaten since 6pm and I had these really bad hunger pangs and it was really weird I felt really sick like I was going to throw up and I laid there for like 2 hours ( Read more... )