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my world is about to crash around me I know it. Everyone has been freaking out lately and I just don't know how much longer I can hide this its become every aspect of my life and its all I ever really think about anymore. I haven't been going to school lately because its hard to explain and it may sound stupid but I'm so scared to I hate being there with all those people judging you all day and stuff I just like to be in my room alone all day because I don't want anyone to see me. This has gotten so bad and I'm also absolutely terrified of what's going to happen when they find out I don't want to go see anyone to get help I don't and its freaking me out so bad. I'm so scared this is going to collaspe around me I don't want it to I'm just so scared right now and I have to go to work tonight and I'm really scared now everyone is going to know something's wrong because my teacher came up there because I'm in a work program through school and she was like why hasn't she been at school. Ugh I just want to cry but I can't I'm shaking right now too ugh I'm just so scared I never ever thought all of this was going to happen.