I can't believe I still know the password to this thing. I have spend the past few hours looking at my LJ and my old one as well as friends'. Its like I was looking out the window of time. So why the posting on this site? Why do it? No one looks here anymore but once in a blue moon in the middle of the night. So I guess I will bring some joy to the ( Read more... )

I need to let my thoughts be place on paper, but i hate hand writing so this is what I'm gonna. I need to kinda rant and put a marker in my life so I can go back and see if I have done any improvements. I highly doubt anyone reads this shit anymore since LJ is dead to everyone I know. But the hell with it ( Read more... )

It has almost been a year since I posted on this site. I almost forgot about livejournal to be honest. Life is going to up and down it is crazy. Alot could be said about the last year. I went down a really interesting path. I lost myself and then found myself later ( Read more... )

Should I or should I not. I have asked this question about a million times over. Should I work things out with Mandy to better the life of my child or should I say no fuck it. Should I just bite the bullet and deal with it for the next 18 years? Possibly be unhappy for those years to insure my child lives the proper life it should live? I don’t ( Read more... )

I guess it’s time to express what has taken place in these last few months. So much has happened. I don’t know where to start really. It just seems like a giant mess of shit and I can’t seem to handle it any more. And it’s killing me slowly I fear. It’s eating at my soul, if there really is one ( Read more... )

I have not been on here to post in forever. So I think today might be a good day too ( Read more... )

As I finish some $1.25 pizza I got at Publix today I sit and think, ponder, mask my mind in thoughts of who if anyone really reads this anymore. I really don’t care, I use this to express my thoughts and feelings on things that have taken place with me. I use it as a door or stepping stone to my mind ( Read more... )

FUCK GOD!!!!! Fuck him. YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!!!! YOU ARE NOTHING!!!!!! NOTHING DAMNIT!!!!!!! DO YOU FUCKING HEAR ME!!!!!!!!

Why, I don't understand it. I can't think, I cant sleep, eat, drink. Nothing I can't do anything. I'm numb to everything, I'm numb to the world. I don't know how to act I don't know what to say. I don't know anything anymore. How can this happen? How can the world be so sick so black? I don't know why. I don't know why....

Ok, so it has been like forever since I last put something meaningful in here. So I think today/night is a good time to ( Read more... )