Need to place on thoughts somewhere
I need to let my thoughts be place on paper, but i hate hand writing so this is what I'm gonna. I need to kinda rant and put a marker in my life so I can go back and see if I have done any improvements. I highly doubt anyone reads this shit anymore since LJ is dead to everyone I know. But the hell with it.
I'm 21 years old and I dont have much of an interesting life. I guess it can be if you arent living it.
I think I'm gonna do bullets or something.
* Still living in a Apartment with my Brother and a friend of his.
* Working at Shane's Rib Shack in Maitland. I'm the Main Cook and Manger. I run the store at night. The owners of the place trust me so much there. They are pretty cool guys. I learned alot from them in the past 7 months.
*I am learning how to play the banjo. I have just 'leveled up' (thats what we call it in the apartment). I remember all the major and some minor chords. My Chord transfers are still rusty but I can do it without looking now. Strumming on my old banjo is not easy. I don't know if it is cuz its a banjo or my strumming sucks. I can strum a guitar pretty well so I dont know. My Finger picking is alright. I sometimes miss hit a string or I dont hit it at all. I have a few rolls remembered. I play a mix of Scruggs, Bluegrass, and Clawhammer with a little of me. But I guess thats like all beginners playing like all types. Oh I didn't talk about my banjo at all, wow. I have a 70-90 year old banjo. Its an open back 5 string banjo. I have to replace the nut and bridge. I have to fix the fret board and the peg heads I did this all myself I would like to add.
*Elizabeth. Thats a huge topic and part of my life. Sadly I have not seen my daughter since aug. Mandy moved to kissimmiee and would not give me an address. I kinda pussyfooted around for a couple months hope that my words could change things but they didnt. I'm currently going to court so I can set up child support and get some kind of visitation. Mandy is not being helpful with this at all, for some reason or other she does not want me around. We fought but I didn't think it was that bad. I guess I was wrong but hell when haven't I been with that woman. I am done bashing my ex and I'm ready to grow up. I just found out that she is no longer with her boyfriend that she lived with for a while at her parents house. For a second or so my heart spring to a level it has not been in a long time. My brain then kicked in and kicked my ass real quick. I want to say I'm happy that she is not with him but at the same time I don't. Maybe this will wake her mind up and see or it might close her eyes even more. I saw a photo of elizabeth in mandy's myspace, damn she is a cutie. I miss my daughter, she's almost one. April 2nd... Damn a year already...
*college. Is not going anywhere any time soon. My plan is to go to college after court. Mandy is not working so when i start paying child support it will mean that I give elizabth 100% or her financial care which will help me get financial aid for college. I want to become something in my life and going to college is the only way to do that.
*I'm still single and staying that way. I don't think I want to get in a relationship anytime soon. I took a step back and saw my life does not need that. I have enough on my plate and I dont want or need more anytime soon.
Thats all that is really going on in the life of Jeff as of March. I Hope things get better if not 2012 is just around the corner and everything should change. It better!
I'm 21 years old and I dont have much of an interesting life. I guess it can be if you arent living it.
I think I'm gonna do bullets or something.
* Still living in a Apartment with my Brother and a friend of his.
* Working at Shane's Rib Shack in Maitland. I'm the Main Cook and Manger. I run the store at night. The owners of the place trust me so much there. They are pretty cool guys. I learned alot from them in the past 7 months.
*I am learning how to play the banjo. I have just 'leveled up' (thats what we call it in the apartment). I remember all the major and some minor chords. My Chord transfers are still rusty but I can do it without looking now. Strumming on my old banjo is not easy. I don't know if it is cuz its a banjo or my strumming sucks. I can strum a guitar pretty well so I dont know. My Finger picking is alright. I sometimes miss hit a string or I dont hit it at all. I have a few rolls remembered. I play a mix of Scruggs, Bluegrass, and Clawhammer with a little of me. But I guess thats like all beginners playing like all types. Oh I didn't talk about my banjo at all, wow. I have a 70-90 year old banjo. Its an open back 5 string banjo. I have to replace the nut and bridge. I have to fix the fret board and the peg heads I did this all myself I would like to add.
*Elizabeth. Thats a huge topic and part of my life. Sadly I have not seen my daughter since aug. Mandy moved to kissimmiee and would not give me an address. I kinda pussyfooted around for a couple months hope that my words could change things but they didnt. I'm currently going to court so I can set up child support and get some kind of visitation. Mandy is not being helpful with this at all, for some reason or other she does not want me around. We fought but I didn't think it was that bad. I guess I was wrong but hell when haven't I been with that woman. I am done bashing my ex and I'm ready to grow up. I just found out that she is no longer with her boyfriend that she lived with for a while at her parents house. For a second or so my heart spring to a level it has not been in a long time. My brain then kicked in and kicked my ass real quick. I want to say I'm happy that she is not with him but at the same time I don't. Maybe this will wake her mind up and see or it might close her eyes even more. I saw a photo of elizabeth in mandy's myspace, damn she is a cutie. I miss my daughter, she's almost one. April 2nd... Damn a year already...
*college. Is not going anywhere any time soon. My plan is to go to college after court. Mandy is not working so when i start paying child support it will mean that I give elizabth 100% or her financial care which will help me get financial aid for college. I want to become something in my life and going to college is the only way to do that.
*I'm still single and staying that way. I don't think I want to get in a relationship anytime soon. I took a step back and saw my life does not need that. I have enough on my plate and I dont want or need more anytime soon.
Thats all that is really going on in the life of Jeff as of March. I Hope things get better if not 2012 is just around the corner and everything should change. It better!