Day 5: It's just my version of the truth

[smokin_patch]

Day 45
Your Name: Badou Nails
Suicidal Ideation: 2/10 8/10
Homicidal Ideation: 3/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: No fucking idea.
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain.: Nope. Blended together pain and fear and him him him. Why? Painted red in my head and I can't even remember it without his eyes. Head underwater and screaming and no one can hear,

Comments

[deatharcana]

Poor Mister Badou, I wish I could help . .

[smokin_patch]

Thanks kid, I wish you could help as well. But it's just one of those things y'know? Bad day but I'll get over it.

[deatharcana]

Well, okay, Mister Badou. Tomorrow will be better.

[deatharcana]

Oh! I remembered something, Mister Badou! Miss Flonne says I'm a guardian angel, so you can come see me if you ever need some . . uhm, guarding, I guess!

[ooc: Potentially helpful information so Badou knows where to go when shit happens :o]

[genkisunflower]

Are you all right, Badou-san?

[smokin_patch]

Not really chica but don't worry 'k? Just gotta wallow in self-pity for awhile and then I'll be back to normal.

[a;ldkjf;lk why is she so cute?]

[genkisunflower]

But you seem upset about something! Maybe you would feel better if you talked about it.

[smokin_patch]

Just... some bad dreams, old memories I'd rather forget. They always unnerve me and I get... cranky for lack of a better word.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Okay, sounds good.

It was small and secluded, kinda rat trap but my little corner of the world y'know. Know where all the burns and traps and little hide aways are. *chuckles* never been compared to a sunset before.

I know, thanks babe.

[private]

[black_mauser]

You're only asking for Him to do something I'm going to regret. You know that, and fuck He hates you now, I don't even know why...

Can't... Demyx make you feel any better about this?

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Fuck Haine, it's... not about him. And you don't gotta do shit man.

I- this- Not about him and I don't want him knowing about it.

[private]

[black_mauser]

Well you say this shit and just expect me to drop it?

Then why do I know about it? Seems like there's a hierarchy and he should probably be a couple steps above me...

[private]

[smokin_patch]

I don't, it's just- sometimes you gotta tell someone. Fuck. Won't happen again.

Maybe but you've been through half my shit with me and it's just... easier with you. Whatever.

[smokin_patch]

Oh? Can't imagine what you're talking about.

[House glasses! *squee*]

[smokin_patch]

And I suppose you're just the man to help me do that.