Day 5: It's just my version of the truth

[smokin_patch]

Day 45
Your Name: Badou Nails
Suicidal Ideation: 2/10 8/10
Homicidal Ideation: 3/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: No fucking idea.
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain.: Nope. Blended together pain and fear and him him him. Why? Painted red in my head and I can't even remember it without his eyes. Head underwater and screaming and no one can hear,

Comments

[private]

[black_mauser]

You're only asking for Him to do something I'm going to regret. You know that, and fuck He hates you now, I don't even know why...

Can't... Demyx make you feel any better about this?

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Fuck Haine, it's... not about him. And you don't gotta do shit man.

I- this- Not about him and I don't want him knowing about it.

[private]

[black_mauser]

Well you say this shit and just expect me to drop it?

Then why do I know about it? Seems like there's a hierarchy and he should probably be a couple steps above me...

[private]

[smokin_patch]

I don't, it's just- sometimes you gotta tell someone. Fuck. Won't happen again.

Maybe but you've been through half my shit with me and it's just... easier with you. Whatever.

[private]

[black_mauser]

Christ, it's not like I'm saying you shouldn't fucking tell someone, but as you'll fucking recall (or dare I say notice), I kind of suck at this.

Well hell if I know, your damage man, just trying it figure it out.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

It's okay if you're shit at it. I- Fuck, I need some shit. My head won't stop aching.

Look I told you alright, that's different from you'n'me. You come first and Dem gets that. S'just the way it is.

[private]

[black_mauser]

I can kick it? Think that'll help?

You keep saying that to me, that doesn't mean I understand it. Shouting at people until they agree generally doesn't work, Badou.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Fucker.

Figured if I said it long enough you'd get it. You're more important shithead.

[private]

[black_mauser]

What? I'm giving you options! I'm offering services that I'm good at. That's one of them. That's actually about it come to think of it.

Right. Still doesn't make sense.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

You damn well underestimate yourself. Go, steal me some good shit.

Then I'll keep saying it until it does.

[private]

[black_mauser]

Where the fuck do you think I'm going to get anything? Apparently some chick has everything holed up and if you need anything you get it from her, and like hell I'm doing that for your ass.

You remember what I said about the shouting at people until they agree thing, right?

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Did I say go to tits? No I said go steal me some. You know where the goddamn infirmary is in this place, I don't got a clue.

Well it's worked before with you.

[private]

[black_mauser]

Fine. Fucking fine. I'll ask someone. Fine.

Oh yeah? Refresh my memory.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

...thanks

Well you aren't dead yet.

[private]

[black_mauser]

You'd just bitch if I didn't anyway.

Heh, working on it.

[private]

[smokin_patch]

Well according to you it's what I do best.

*eyeroll* bastard.