hmmm...what's this point where it all makes sense? where everything culminates? where i know so many things in my gut that I can't articulate because it's knowing more than anything that could ever make sense in this level of exsistence?

Bodega by Khalil Almustafa | print | email ( Read more... )

reflection....insecurities.....lurking...waiting...stories in my head....reality...false reality...when...why....this has been the road choosen for me....

the trees don't even know...they grow outward...fattening with time....i grow in and out....shedding like they do...and keeping my layered core ( Read more... )

I'm home again. I feel like all I've done for the past two days is eat....here in teh suburbs i don't do as much walking or moving...i'm realizing that in new york i rarely sit down...even when working...i'm walking...talking...moving things....it's a very sedentary lifestyle out here ( Read more... )

So tired---the emotions have depleted me. I'm raw today---I haven't been this way since Ashley left. I'm sad for so many things today. Today I feel like crawling into the woods and sitting---watching water carry sticks swiftly over land. Staring at various shades of brown littering the ground----all dead---but standing on top of life's potential. ( Read more... )

I think she's leaving us....i can barely bring myself to face it.....
I cried this morning for a little...but then i had to push it down cause i have to teach today.....
images keep cropping up in my head.....
i can't bear to think of her suffering....
i just hope she's not scared.....

NIGERIAN / AMERICAN RELATIONS ( Read more... )

....do we always want to go back...always....to make things better....and is it that we want to go back...or is it that we want to make things better. Of course, it is both ( Read more... )

should there be sanity, consistancy in my mind while i'm teaching? lately it feels like i'm pulled in 7 directions everytime i enter the classroom....there are too many students...and not enough of me.....i've found my patience dwindling in the past year...that's how i know it's time to leave......i've figured out why this program is tremendous.... ( Read more... )