I haven't written im my lj in soo long it's crazy cuz here at college i have a real life and am always hanging with friends watching movies, going places, doing drugs, and just having so much fun... I have this one really good friend her name is Liz and we are mad tight yo!... are we going out? ummm... ???? but everyone just assumes we are so w/e ( Read more... )

well i was sitting in my room today and i thought i should make something kewl with my flash mx2004 program that is extra spiffy... and then i realized after much hard work... that i should be a computer graphics engineer... i mean i already am awesome making graphics... i think i'll put this piece in my resume:


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last night around ten o clock (i set the post time for the exact moment lol) i'm chillin in my crib watching law and order and much to my surprise the phone rings... so i pick it up and am like "hello" and this girls says hi and i'm like who is this? and they say their name is joe... so i thought must be a nick name... so after a lengthy convo... ( Read more... )

wow i feel bad for elana... sorry girl for breaking your heart but maybe next lifetime... and congrats to all you kids who get to be there...

so here I am one last post from my new york vacation house lol... thus ends my 20yr vacation lmao... woo wee what a blast... at times it was great then there was great disappointment and well now it's time to move on... to new things, hopefully better things but then again I wonder how it could get worse but oddly enough every time I say that it ( Read more... )

so i was goin to write a real depressing poem about how i feel in relations to my long lost love and other shitty shit in my life but i was interupted by news of someone i knew hung himself... i was a leader on his confirmation retreat and he went to lourdes for two years he seemed like a real nice kid out of all the assholes at lourdes and well ( Read more... )

wow yesterday was such a fun day and i really didn't do alot... first thing was an e-mail from heather ::gasp:: haven't heard from her in months... and then she called me and i was soo excited cuz i missed her alot... so yeah we are goin to hang out thursday (after i get back from vacation)... then that night i meet up with tj jj linda and tesa ( Read more... )

i feel sick to my stomach.... i was super happy and still am happy but I'm now so pissed and angry and upset about a bunch of things and i just feel like i am goin to barf and yeah i just want to die right now... but instead i think i will swallow a bunch of my happy pills and never have to deal with it again... or until i run out.... ::raises ( Read more... )

it's 1:32am and i can't sleep but i know i should be sleeping cuz i got to go to work at 10am... booo... only 8 1/2hrs to go.... i can't sleep as of late cuz i can't stop thinking about how lonely i am... but i am doing my best to hold on till i go to salem on sept 7... because there i won't be able to be lonely...

it's official i leave for salem sept 7, but i wish i was it was today... cuz i talked to elana last night and i realized there really isn't anything left here for me... the only thing here really is my dieing mom which is no fun to watch... i don't think i would be able to watch it for another year... but i know she is going to die soon and that ( Read more... )