september couldn't come soon enough....
it's official i leave for salem sept 7, but i wish i was it was today... cuz i talked to elana last night and i realized there really isn't anything left here for me... the only thing here really is my dieing mom which is no fun to watch... i don't think i would be able to watch it for another year... but i know she is going to die soon and that obviously makes me sad but it's part of life... she's the best mother i've ever had and i'm not worried about her death because i know jesus is going to take her in to a much better place becuz she deserves it for putting up with my dad for 25 years and pampering me and my brother and kitty too... it's kinda sad 20 yrs and what do i have to show for it but a pile of matter (myself) and a room full of economy driven products.... NY you make yourself seem so kewl but in truth your no better then Iowa or BumFuck... but you do host alot more crime and greed driven fools... so it would seem your actually worse... hmmm... your full of fake people who act real for a while but then stop for no good reason... so yeah ny thanx for screwing me over then sending me away becuz of it (2003 holiday)... but we had our good times including the best night of my life... but you took it all away and that's why i shall for ever hate you, you took that, and you took two of my grandparents the only two i got to know... this kind of shit wouldn't happen anywhere else (lol) like in hollywood everything would be a happy ending like it is every night on tv... but not here in ny... but that's the problem with society (reality) it's nothing like whats on tv and that depresses people that they can't have this unattainable life or relationship... but we can all pretend that we will achieve it but never actually... you have subconsciously accepted this but believe the opposite for survival reasons... ::raises his drink:: here's to the best life ever