i wish that i still knew you the
way i did when we would pull
your futon onto your back porch
and fall asleep in the morning sun
after kissing eachother's
noses, over and over.

i have missed that kid for a long time.
although, don't get me wrong, this one
was very nice too, for a while,
but it has been different.

so it's fitting that we've made full circle
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last night so many fun and fucked up things happened within minutes of each other. there are so many things about syracuse and high school i'm going to miss and so many i am ready to purge myself of ( Read more... )

i love getting my hands dirty and watching alex walk up and down the aisles with casey, like they are on the most important misson in the world. even if it is to the doughnut box ( Read more... )

i had a really great time since i've been back. everyone looks so old and attractive and i feel old and attractive.
i'm back at my house and i am pretty sure this place is not for me anymore. i'm ready to go. so, so ready to go.
harry potter was quite good. i am really excited for the 21st.
i spent all of my left over travel money on cheap thrills. ( Read more... )

lost five or six pounds in a week. my average beverage consumption has dramatically shifted from smirnoff and keystone to water and the occasional coke zero. i think that's got a lot to do with it ( Read more... )

my grandmother had a heart attack last night and could not be resuscitated. i'm leaving for indianapolis tomorrow. someone remind me if there are any important dates for me to be in syracuse, i may stay there a little longer than the rest of my family if i don't have any obligations ( Read more... )

but how much would it cost me to get to atlanta anyhow?
i've got $950 in scholarship/graduation money and i'm going back to my job this morning.
you may expect me after i buy pillowcases and shit.

he couldn't pick a worse time to be unsure.
i'm so dissappointed. and i don't know if i even want it because it's going to end anyway and he could have been grown up and everything i wanted to present to my family. i thought he was. but he is still  piss-scared. and i am let down.

i'm doing my best to prep for the next week. there's been a lot of cleaning. my folks are using the family visits and the party as an excuse to fix the house way the fuck up ( Read more... )

smoked pot  five times in four days. don't think i've showered since prom. had to fend off a gross drunk boy.
home now.
detox.

well hello summer.