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i'm doing my best to prep for the next week. there's been a lot of cleaning. my folks are using the family visits and the party as an excuse to fix the house way the fuck up.
i think i want to just occupy myself with the projects i should have been occupying myself with months and weeks ago.
i told Alex last night that I think that i like him more than I have in a very long time. i don't feel like flirting with anyone, or talking about who I'd put it to, or any of that stuff I usually do, and it's because i just want him. and that is kind of unsettling to me. the thing is that the last time I felt this way, he didn't. and that was when we first split and how we've been lately reminds me of two summers ago. I picked a public inconvieniant place to start this talk so he didn't want to continue. we haven't talked since and it's been really burning in my mind.
i feel weird.
nina, how long are you staying. because it should be for a while. i want some best friend action that is not simultaneously family action.
i think i want to just occupy myself with the projects i should have been occupying myself with months and weeks ago.
i told Alex last night that I think that i like him more than I have in a very long time. i don't feel like flirting with anyone, or talking about who I'd put it to, or any of that stuff I usually do, and it's because i just want him. and that is kind of unsettling to me. the thing is that the last time I felt this way, he didn't. and that was when we first split and how we've been lately reminds me of two summers ago. I picked a public inconvieniant place to start this talk so he didn't want to continue. we haven't talked since and it's been really burning in my mind.
i feel weird.
nina, how long are you staying. because it should be for a while. i want some best friend action that is not simultaneously family action.