...i...lost him... he's not coming home and doesn't know when he'll be back. *cries hysterically* my life has offically ended. i've lost my life...my world...my...everything. they were right you know...they were all FUCKING RIGHT. i was pushing him away...i did drive him away...i...i...

i really messed up this time. i did the one thing i swore i would never do and now i wish i could take it all back. unfortunately i can't and now i must sit and look at how much i hurt the man i love more than anything. *cries* how the hell could i have been so damn insensitive? how could i do that to him when he's done nothing but love me? ( Read more... )

okay this is the deal i am SO fucking tired of everything. i just got bitched at by tam because i'm mean and i'm mad and i'm this and i'm that. you know what? i don't give a damn! i don't even know where thehell it came from. i mean damn...i'm sitting there talking to her and the next thing i know she's saying this shit. what the hell did i do ( Read more... )

not like i needed a quiz to tell me this but yeah..i'm freaking bored...going to bed now. nite!


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the only reality show i watch is the real world but since i'm not overly dramatic and slutty i can't make it to that one lol


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trent is resting cause he's sick so i get to take the quiz thing i found from chris..thanks...although the site...freaky lol


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just got back from the doctor and......4 of the 6 attached. not all 6 but hey that's better than they thought. i'm so happy and liz and doug are absolutely thrilled. ME TOO!!!! okay i just had to write that down. going to go take a shower and wait for my husband to get home from work.

jen

so i'm bored cause trent is sleeping as well as my babies. tamz and i just made a few batches of cookies so kids and daddy will be happy when they wake up. tamz is driving me crazy cause my friend marc asked her for a date when he gets ack from cali. *cough* bastard *cough* in nice warm sunny cali while we're here freezing wet and icy in pa. ( Read more... )

GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?!?! iiiiiiiiiiiii'm pregnant again! i'm so happy and aaaaaaaa. if you think i'm bad you should see trent lol. awww he's too cute all excited and freaking out. he's even forgetting his other kids and things about them. lol ( Read more... )