wow...Stupid boy...I haven't said his name in awhile..likes me. Ick. That is gross. I need to go vomit. What a loser. Its actually quite amusing. Wow..{{laughs}} wow...

To whom it may concern,

I can't even make excuses anymore. I am tired of trying to. It would be wonderful if each and everyone of you knew, and thought of me the same way. But it can't and it won't go on like that. I don't even rememeber when it started. It was probably a year and a half ago. And I thought it was over but it just keeps coming ( Read more... )

Friday isn't even worth explaining ( Read more... )

The buzzing of the lawn mower tunes out the buzzing in my head. Relief. I’ve sat on this front step for hours now sorting through all the things needed to be said. Needed not wanted. Slowly the sun fades behind transparent clouds, letting the cool, brisk darkness fall over me. And just as the sun falls you rise. Smiling like always, because you ( Read more... )

Sometimes the most perfect things are so un-perfect ( Read more... )

Sometimes it feels like I am the least important thing in the world ( Read more... )

Semi was exactly how I wanted it to be.
It was perfect.
And I spent it with the perfect person.
Max had 53 glow braclets in total.
What a sweet little child.
Justin was happy and had fun. Snaps for him.
I had the best time.
It was a breath taking night.
And now its over...

Today was like a dream. One that got good and bad. One that you want to keep going but always ends. It was like that today.

Nothing eventful happened at school. Lunch was spetacular. I turned to talk to Ben and Dana wraped his arms around me. Simply because he could. Things like that keep me breathing. After school I had honors chorus and that was ( Read more... )

I'm tired.
I got a polka-dotted shirt.
It is very hawt.
I love it.

I am trying harder. In school. In everything. In not trying to solve other peoples problems. In trying to focus on my own. And it works you know. Just living for yourself. Seems like I tried to change peoples lives and nobody really helped me with my own ( Read more... )