It tears out a bit of the heart every time he walks out that door. I think I'm actually trying to be an alcoholic. Well, not trying, just simply realizing the path I'm on but doing nothing to change it. Drinks every night after work with Brie and Dan and whoever else decides to show up, drinks when I get home to cry into my pillow, sometimes ( Read more... )

i hadn't seen him since my freshman year of college ( Read more... )

finding a random stranger (make that beautiful random stranger) to take home seemed like a perfectly good idea at the time. then again, many ideas appear brilliant when you've had a few vodka tonics. yikes. i know it's one of those get-"him"-off-your-mind one night stands. i'm such a loser. now this possibly psychotic guy knows where my duplex ( Read more... )

one missed call on my cell phone. it's him. help help help. ok, i can do this. it's not bad. i just won't call him back. simple as that. visualize myself calm, surrounded by positive energy and with each exhale, i'll let my attachment to him and all the sickness that comes with it just escape my body.

so much has happened since august, i forgot i even had this journal thingie. i moved out of state. finally. leaving kevin was quite possibly one of the hardest things i've ever had to do, more on that later though, i don't have alot of time right now. i've gotta go job hunting. the money i have in the bank can only last about two months, so it ( Read more... )

well, i'm beginning this journal in order to have a safe haven from the super sleuths that like to track my every move. i know that sounds paranoid, but it's gotten to the point that i want to be able to use livejournal as a JOURNAL. i realize you can use the privacy mode... but really, why even create an account if you're not going to be open to ( Read more... )