i have just wandered back here
after a very long time and realized
that in two years, i
haven't gone far at all.

I have:
-a shirt that smells bitter
-so much work undone
-a cat who i squeeze for the warmth

Fred Phelps is sending people to protest the NIU funerals. One of the girls I knew from school lost her brother in the shootings- so weird to see his picture on the major network sites, knowing he's in all her family photos.

It is hard to fight hate with love when you just feel anger at ignorance. Yelling back just fans the flames, and I know ( Read more... )

shannon opened this morning, so 5 a.m. found me sleeping in before feeding the new fish (Petuna) and getting all reflective in a simplistic, journally way, which i haven't done for a very long time.

past-present:
i am distant from life presently in a way that i can't explain. 'present' here is very broad... the angst and self-esteem issues that i ( Read more... )

this is some sort of an in between... and i don't know that i'm weathering it all that well.

wondereyedhazel: oh my god.
ktsheepotato: ...
wondereyedhazel: have you seen the news?
ktsheepotato: about virginia tech?
wondereyedhazel: yeah
ktsheepotato: yeah
ktsheepotato: sick
wondereyedhazel: sad
ktsheepotato: both
wondereyedhazel: yes.

it's time to move out of the aesthetic stage.

"I am going to Nigeria tomorrow" quoth he. And it's been almost a year since I moved out at midnight, barefoot and exhausted and on my way to places warmer and more vulnerable and very far from home ( Read more... )

Shannon EP: i think there's a national blonde day
wondereyedhazel: i'd believe it
wondereyedhazel: but how do you celebrate that?
Shannon EP: by being fabulous
wondereyedhazel: oh geez
Shannon EP: *hair swish*
wondereyedhazel: *steady saucy look*
wondereyedhazel: *brunette keeps her cool*
Shannon EP: *birds land. deer settle nearby long ( Read more... )

at times
there are good days
when sad music
is perfect.