is it really so bad to reveal things about yourself - to others or even just yourself - in livejournal? this stream of conciousness thing, i think, is sooo helpful in understanding how you really feel. that's pretty much the only reason i use livejournal. not to keep people updated on my life,(hell there's only a few people that read it, and i keep it friends only) but to keep myself in check. remind myself that hey, my 20s actually are sort of awesome in spite of making myself sad over stupid things all of the time. when you write how you feel, it's there in black and white and it's easier to process. it feels a little easier to manage. it feels a little more trivial. in my head i go round and round in circles, but here there is a more distinct beginning and end. i make lots of private journal entries for this reason. the public ones are ususally just fluff or something i feel comfortable enough sharing
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i guess an issue i have with revealing things on here or whatever is that in some ways it's misleading, incomplete, and yeah kinda trivial. not that any one thought/feeling/belief is less important, but as more come and go, they all become smaller pieces to who i fully am. since i'm usually 89% thinker versus doer, i couldn't possibly squeeze everything in my mind into one post or even all my posts. i think that's why it's easy for some of my friends to only see me as a pessimist. they typically aren't getting the full exposure. a lot of people are super surprised i can dance. i use "can" loosely
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i completely understand what you mean about having far more thoughts than you could ever write about. i'm a pretty introspective person myself. no one person could get all of the thoughts out of their head into written word, i don't think. whether they were introspective and thoughtful in nature or not. sometimes thoughts can't even be described in words. as soon as you think of the perfect words to describe how you think and what you feel, you forget what you were saying and feeling. i guess that's what i meant by getting them down makes them more managble and trivial. when you sit down and really try to take inventory of what's going on in your head overall today, it's really not as heavy as the weight might feel. at least that's the way journaling often makes me feel. plus i really like going back and remembering things that i didn't think mattered at the time, but i hold dear to me now. i think by nature i'm a proponent of documentation. i don't know what the purpose of that is, as when i die it's not like someone is
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oh oh oh oh! i forgot to say this too. i was surprised to read that bit about hopeful dreaming males and the flighty female. i always felt like the complete opposite was true for me. i always percieved males as more sexual and less feeling creatures who only interact with me if there's nothing else to do. i know that probably seems twisted, but sometimes i feel like i'm just a warm body to occupy time and space until the guy can get laid, ya know? i always am very surprised to hear guys talk about having feelings, really. i get along well with guys, but i think that's probably because i'm flirtatious in nature. i'm always the friend and never the love interest. although i'm married and stuff, it's nice to have someone want you, ya know? that never happens to me. i attribute it to the complete lack of chance of ever sleeping with me. ok. done commenting now!
that whole concept is mostly my experience. i've had at least a couple of opportunities to sleep with people who i actually wanted to but didn't. it even got to the point of sleeping in the same bed, but out of respect for them, the situation, and most importantly myself; i chose not to
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