i guess an issue i have with revealing things on here or whatever is that in some ways it's misleading, incomplete, and yeah kinda trivial. not that any one thought/feeling/belief is less important, but as more come and go, they all become smaller pieces to who i fully am. since i'm usually 89% thinker versus doer, i couldn't possibly squeeze everything in my mind into one post or even all my posts. i think that's why it's easy for some of my friends to only see me as a pessimist. they typically aren't getting the full exposure. a lot of people are super surprised i can dance. i use "can" loosely.
that stuff and for some reason i feel like there's a negative stigma regarding people that talk about themselves too much. i'm always cautious of that. actually it's more of a paranoia.
it's funny to think of things in terms of "20's." i have to take things year by year. the difference between 21 and 23 for me is retardedly drastic.
oh yeah i forgot. a lot of people i deal with often tend to not engage in the heavy stuff, rather keeping it simplified...stupid humor, movies, etc. i'm not too handy with that kinda speak, especially since i'm not into a lot of current media. it kinda makes me feel isolated which makes me less inclined to write and talk about other things. inevitably, i'm going to want someone to relate to whatever it is i'm saying. i figure most people are the same. social creatures yeah?
okay okay,
i'm going to kroger's in a few to get fixins for some bakies so give a hoot and tell me about this weekend. i might make it out saturday with some good goods. you think you might like scandinavian gingersnaps? everyone liked my first batch.
i completely understand what you mean about having far more thoughts than you could ever write about. i'm a pretty introspective person myself. no one person could get all of the thoughts out of their head into written word, i don't think. whether they were introspective and thoughtful in nature or not. sometimes thoughts can't even be described in words. as soon as you think of the perfect words to describe how you think and what you feel, you forget what you were saying and feeling. i guess that's what i meant by getting them down makes them more managble and trivial. when you sit down and really try to take inventory of what's going on in your head overall today, it's really not as heavy as the weight might feel. at least that's the way journaling often makes me feel. plus i really like going back and remembering things that i didn't think mattered at the time, but i hold dear to me now. i think by nature i'm a proponent of documentation. i don't know what the purpose of that is, as when i die it's not like someone is going to sit down and read my journal and feel warm and fuzzies. but sometimes it really helps with my own day-to-day.
i agree that there are a lot of people out there that are far too concerned with themselves and talk about themselves a lot. but i think that in this case, you get a free pass. people expect to hear you talking about yourself in a journal. i don't know about everyone else, but i find it really interesting. my hunger for learning about people is practially insatiable. i'm also curious by nature and i love learning about the way different people process things and live their lives to what cereal they eat and what kind of soap they use. it's all very interesting to me. i'm one of those people who walk into your bathroom and thinks "wow, crest. i never would have pinned him as a crest guy". (but hey, i'm not a snoop)
i guess my 20s have been pretty consistent for me because i have been in a serious relationship throughout them with the same guy. i've gone through friend cycles, but they're gradual. i wonder if i'll think about my 20s as a chunk of time when i get older, the way i think about childhood.
when you say that most of your friends talk about movies and music and the trivial i tried hard to think about what i talk about with my friends. i don't really know! julie and i can talk for hours, but it's almost never about tv (she doesn't have cable) movies (neither of us really go frequently)...we talk about the music we share in common, but we like different things. i have no idea what we talk about. strange. she's just one of those people i get along with well...no matter what we're talking about. similar personality types, i guess. she also has amazing advice and insight a lot which i really value. i never could get close to those friends who couldn't advise me or, i don't know, think critically about the way they're living their lives.
i've never had a scandinavian gingersnap before! i'm sure they're good. :-D
i don't know what's going on this weekend, but i told jason (indigobunting) that i would hang out with him at alchemize at least for a bit. i'll look into the goings on.
that stuff and for some reason i feel like there's a negative stigma regarding people that talk about themselves too much. i'm always cautious of that. actually it's more of a paranoia.
it's funny to think of things in terms of "20's." i have to take things year by year. the difference between 21 and 23 for me is retardedly drastic.
oh yeah i forgot. a lot of people i deal with often tend to not engage in the heavy stuff, rather keeping it simplified...stupid humor, movies, etc. i'm not too handy with that kinda speak, especially since i'm not into a lot of current media. it kinda makes me feel isolated which makes me less inclined to write and talk about other things. inevitably, i'm going to want someone to relate to whatever it is i'm saying. i figure most people are the same. social creatures yeah?
okay okay,
i'm going to kroger's in a few to get fixins for some bakies so give a hoot and tell me about this weekend. i might make it out saturday with some good goods. you think you might like scandinavian gingersnaps? everyone liked my first batch.
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i agree that there are a lot of people out there that are far too concerned with themselves and talk about themselves a lot. but i think that in this case, you get a free pass. people expect to hear you talking about yourself in a journal. i don't know about everyone else, but i find it really interesting. my hunger for learning about people is practially insatiable. i'm also curious by nature and i love learning about the way different people process things and live their lives to what cereal they eat and what kind of soap they use. it's all very interesting to me. i'm one of those people who walk into your bathroom and thinks "wow, crest. i never would have pinned him as a crest guy". (but hey, i'm not a snoop)
i guess my 20s have been pretty consistent for me because i have been in a serious relationship throughout them with the same guy. i've gone through friend cycles, but they're gradual. i wonder if i'll think about my 20s as a chunk of time when i get older, the way i think about childhood.
when you say that most of your friends talk about movies and music and the trivial i tried hard to think about what i talk about with my friends. i don't really know! julie and i can talk for hours, but it's almost never about tv (she doesn't have cable) movies (neither of us really go frequently)...we talk about the music we share in common, but we like different things. i have no idea what we talk about. strange. she's just one of those people i get along with well...no matter what we're talking about. similar personality types, i guess. she also has amazing advice and insight a lot which i really value. i never could get close to those friends who couldn't advise me or, i don't know, think critically about the way they're living their lives.
i've never had a scandinavian gingersnap before! i'm sure they're good. :-D
i don't know what's going on this weekend, but i told jason (indigobunting) that i would hang out with him at alchemize at least for a bit. i'll look into the goings on.
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