& i don't understand.
do they think i'm so predictable?
do they think that it's impossible to do?
when i've done it once before.
& just b/c i fell back into the lie once,
twice... it won't happen again.
why would i fall a third time?
if it even ever happened,
he can go to hell.
he deserves it.

so why would you imply ( Read more... )

and here she is, revisiting the same lie, the lines spoken so long ago. lines repeated by the same person, both time dragging it along, afraid of the distance. here she is, wondering as always, what it all means. coming across music she forgot she favored at one point in time, yet remembering all the lyrics all too clearly. what's it like to get ( Read more... )

you wouldn't understand, even if i tried to explain. all these things, kept locked tight inside. you wouldn't understand, even if you read everythin i've written down, all these thoughts that fight for freedom, writtern but it's taboo to ever speak them. you just wouldn't understand, not that you would ever ask, not like you would ever know, i'm ( Read more... )

stay. out. of. my. dreams.
i have enough of my own shit to deal with that i don't need yours imposing in on it.
i don't care how much you want to stay in wonderland.
it's yours.
keep it to yourself.

she still checks her email in vain idealism.
she still checks the playlists everytime they come on.
she still checks the friends icons whenever is there.
she'll never be quite over it.
fool. little, lost fool.

hush little baby, don't say a word,
mama's gonna buy you a looking glass
and if that looking glass gets broke....
shattered remains. she ( Read more... )

she could have held onto him ( Read more... )

there are so many things that could be said, so many fears and worries that have been bred from past actions, reactions, things that have no reason behind them yet still happened. so many things that keep her up late at night, tossing and turning, images burned behind her closed eyes. things that she knows could happen, would happen, will happen. ( Read more... )

discard this veil so heavy over her face ( Read more... )

i feel so completely lost when it comes to your world right now ( Read more... )

I could make a thousand playlists with tons of songs to describe how I feel about the situation. But it would never matter because I would never show them to anyone. And even if I did, it's not like anyone would ever understand what exactly it is that I'm trying to say ( Read more... )