So anyone who knows me... Know's I need sleep to stay sane. I'm not getting it at all. last night I took 2 ambiens and what do u know... Didn't work. I didn't get to sleep last night till about 6:30 and woke up at 10, still ultra tired. I don't know what the problem is. My tummy hurts. I'm having thoughts about someone whom I miss SO MUCh. Insomina ( Read more... )

Day two of Medication.  Last night I took an ambien because I couldnt sleep, I woke up 1.5 hours later. Took 3 more amibiens... stayed awake for a couple more hours, and last time I looked at the clock it said 630, so I guess i fell asleep a little after, but only till 715 for when my alarm was set for.

Sluggish and aggravated in the morning. Took a ( Read more... )

So officially today I went to the doctor. I told him about all my problems, and at 3:29 Friday March 23rd. I started taking 30mg of Cymbalta a day. I hoep it helps. i'm totally tired of having my emotions and thoughts out of my hands. It's so frustrating when you wanna help yourself, but honestly can't do it alone. I'm a huge doubter in Anti- ( Read more... )

I don't even know where to begin with the day.
Hopefully clarity ensues from all the emptiness i've felt lately.
My words, my art, and my mind are in an extraordinarily perpetual day trip.
It loops over and over again and I've looped so far around on the  circle that i've crossed back into sanity twice now.
I havta keep remembering.
" I go round & round ( Read more... )

Yea so It's been a really long time since I updated this ( Read more... )

so yea, someone on my livejournal freinds list wrote how Britneys new song "made them want to punsih there face with crack". I havta say after being a fan, for some of my life that now i realize how much she really does FUCKING SUCK. She's not pretty, her husbands not cute, her baby probabley looks like a monkey, any bit of fashion sense she has ( Read more... )

I know it hasn't been that long, and i feel like a fool saying it........but i really like him, and i hope he likes me, and i hope it works out between us. Its so hard to find nice guys anymore, and i think i may have. I've never been with a guy who was this different, maybe thats what makes it so worth while. i'll just wait. impatient me

I bet it makes you laugh ( Read more... )

See the stone set in your eyes... See the thorn twist in your side... and I wait without you ( Read more... )

i'm drunk, because i'm lonely
even when surrounded by many i feel that way most days.
he's gone
i'm not strong
and i'm about to watch beaches with my bottle of tequilla and cry.
good day to you sirs