How to get him back?
Yea so It's been a really long time since I updated this.
It's a little wierd how you don't need a creative outlet when your happy.
OR....... to be more exact..... When you THINK your happy.
I was so close this time, so close to finding the one.
He left though, he abandoned me and left me all alone in my nutty mindset.
"It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got" < apparently he never realized that.
I'm sure he feels free from my pain, free from everything I ever did for him.
Free from my pain, free from my gifts, free from me.
I lost my best friend, my boyfriend, my teamate... all in one wretched day.
Then I freaked out and he didn't even care.
At least after Michael he made up for it, he knew how hurt I was in the end, and he ultimitlly said "it didn't work with us, but your not an aweful person" and That was all I needed.
Instead the person whom I shared everything with for 8 months vanished, almost into another life. Simply because everyone wants him to be something he is not, I never tried to make him anything.
Then I come to find that the reason no guys ever want to date me is not because I don't look right, not because my personality sucks, but because I'm branded an emotional psycho freak in the gay community, and no one wants to deal with that.
No body knows me though.
I'm so much more then "that psycho boyfriend"
I'm so lost now it's not even funny.
I just don't know how anybody makes it through times like this.
I'm broken, beaten, branded, and belly up floating.
A shell of what I once was.
Empty
How do I get him back?
Steve
It's a little wierd how you don't need a creative outlet when your happy.
OR....... to be more exact..... When you THINK your happy.
I was so close this time, so close to finding the one.
He left though, he abandoned me and left me all alone in my nutty mindset.
"It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you've got" < apparently he never realized that.
I'm sure he feels free from my pain, free from everything I ever did for him.
Free from my pain, free from my gifts, free from me.
I lost my best friend, my boyfriend, my teamate... all in one wretched day.
Then I freaked out and he didn't even care.
At least after Michael he made up for it, he knew how hurt I was in the end, and he ultimitlly said "it didn't work with us, but your not an aweful person" and That was all I needed.
Instead the person whom I shared everything with for 8 months vanished, almost into another life. Simply because everyone wants him to be something he is not, I never tried to make him anything.
Then I come to find that the reason no guys ever want to date me is not because I don't look right, not because my personality sucks, but because I'm branded an emotional psycho freak in the gay community, and no one wants to deal with that.
No body knows me though.
I'm so much more then "that psycho boyfriend"
I'm so lost now it's not even funny.
I just don't know how anybody makes it through times like this.
I'm broken, beaten, branded, and belly up floating.
A shell of what I once was.
Empty
How do I get him back?
Steve