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Still alive and pretty happy
Not sure exactly why I decided to post again today. I have many other ways I like to do my thinking these days. But today gets a journal entry for the first time in over a year, longer than that for public posts.
Important points in my life:- I've been 100% vegan (minus a few mistakes in food I've ordered) for almost a year now.
- I've been with my ( Read more... )
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Poker
Sometime around November last year a friend taught me how to play Texas hold-em. We played friendly games for nickels and dimes for months. Then I went to a casino with him where they do a promotion that if you have two Aces in your hand, and lose the hand, the casino gives you $100. It's a fairly safe game to play since you can play for about $ ( Read more... ) -
An exciting groove
Several things occurring ( Read more... ) -
Nothing/Something Special
Making my now annual appearance in writing here, I've come to find out if the act of writing to you all can engender the focus necessary to become motivated and interested in anything ( Read more... ) -
My obsession and other updates
First the other updates while I still have you waiting to read about my obsession. I'm still mostly healthy, though full of tension and not quite able to think clearly as I would like most of the time. I've been learning to play poker and win. I've developed quite a bit of skill and experience in website design through my work. I haven't had a ( Read more... ) -
Feeling much healthier
The new diet plan is working well. I've definitely been more energetic and awake and able to focus these last few weeks. The headaches were mostly from Caffeine withdrawal I'm sure. I haven't even had a soda or cup of tea in the whole time. I'm only about 50% on the diet. I have still been putting cheap pancake syrup on my partly wheat based ( Read more... ) -
Fatigue
So, fall is upon us again. And guess where I am? Still in Wisconsin. I have accomplished almost nothing professionally this year so far. And my mental health is not improved on a consistent basis. I'm worse than ever in fact. My frustration with my self is incredibly high. I'm becoming desperate. I was saving money for a trip to china this ( Read more... ) -
I miss my journal
I just wanted to let anyone know who still occasionally reads this that I miss you. I miss writing to you and my future self. I miss getting your insight ( Read more... ) -
B-12 is next
The Piracetam works pretty well. I can feel a difference in my waking alertness and ability hold everything in my mind at once which is necessary for more complex work like programming ( Read more... ) -
Another effort at fixing my brain
I've always had periods of great mental clarity throughout my life. They would usually be triggered by some need to get in the zone. But they would rarely last long. Most of the time I would be in a somewhat normal and consistent state where things were ok, but not genius.
These days my normal state is tired and jittery at the same time, with a ( Read more... )