I knew that being optimistic about this summer would only mean it would be turning out to be one of the worst. I hate it so far. I'm stuck at Orava where I spend my time at work, home or riding a bike. Stana doesn't give a shit and when we meet she's just full of herself and her new boyfriend, telling me of the places and discos she's going, never ( Read more... )

Finally a day off. Yeah, I sort of realize that I've only worked for three days straight, but somehow I felt really exhausted yesterday night. Today I want to go out on my cousin's bike. As I was going home from work yesterday, i took Jenny's bike because it was in the restaurant's cellar. I rode home and loved it. It really was a long time since I ( Read more... )

Summer's officially started and I'm already at Orava after my first two workdays. I'm really disappointed i don't get to be the English guide on the castle and continue to work at my aunt's restaurant for a minimum wage. Grandmther keeps banging it against my head among other things, but when the interview was taking place, i was simply sure that I ( Read more... )

I am so lost and can't wait to get out of here. After what happened today, I feel I must get away.

I was wondering whether to write this and not just keep it to myself, but I believe that no one will judge me in a way, so...

Maybe I've done a mistake and maybe it didn't help a bit, only made things harder to deal with, still i don't regret it.

After ( Read more... )

I broke up with the boyfriend after more than half a year of our relationship. It was my first serious relationship and he was my first love. I feel oddly empty, but it's better this way, it really is.

I had contemplated the break-up very often lately . The whole thing was driving me mad. It was so hard, though. Sometimes I really felt like the ( Read more... )

I'm sad about Michael Jackson. Despite all the scandals and craziness, it's sad. His music was amazing.

In other words, school has ended for me. Almost all the other schools in this country finish next Tuesday, but we've been granted by our Headmaster the rare honor of being cool in at least something when we don't get any trips abroad and such. ( Read more... )

Thanks everyone that replied to my previous two entries full of spite and sadness, whether it was a stupid meaningless D from Physics or the fact that I won´t be seeing my dad for God knows how long still. I feel better than the day before yesterday, the pain and anger have kind of ebbed away. As usual I ran away to Orava, and in an hour I´ll be ( Read more... )

I've been denied travel to the USA while my 12 year old brother has. All the dreams are crushed. I won't be seeing my father after eight years. I won't see the place again, i won't meet all those other people.

They denied my application the second time without giving me a solid reason. As if I were someone dangerous or not appropriate for the ( Read more... )

I'm definitely going to have a D in Physics!

*smashes herself against the floor and bawls*

I feel like the stupidest person on earth.
 

Life is crazy. I can't wait for the bloody year to be over. Everything is bad bad bad right now. School is draining me. This is the first time I've been on the internet in the past four days. I believe it's one of those personal records. I've been away at Orava for the weekend anyway and I'm planning to go there this Thursday evening again. I'll ( Read more... )