I told my boyfriend what I was doing for November. He seemed happy with it. I guess even he thinks I am a fat ass and doesn't need to be eating any more food for the next month. Oh well, I am staying focused on my goal and just need to get through this month. Just one day at a time, one hour at a time, and before long, it should be a month ( Read more... )

My dad came over today. He told me that I looked like I had been losing weight. WOO HOO! Finally, not such a complete failure ( Read more... )

Well I finally went to sleep around 4 a.m. and slept for 4 hours. I woke up this morning to weigh in, and I am at 170. Woo hoo! I am so happy. Today will be a good day!
HW: 220
LW: 102
CW: 170
GW: 110

Making progress! It is going to be a long month! But, hopefully I will lose lots of pounds.
Stay strong.

HW: 220 ( Read more... )

I can't sleep tonight. Too stressed out. I did so good today. I ate nothing! I almost took a bite of banana when my daughter handed it to me, but stayed strong and threw it in the trash. I am glad I didn't eat anything, since if I had, I would only be hating myself for it. It isn't worth the "mind screw" afterwards. I feel like such a failure when ( Read more... )

Today for breakfast, 1 can of Boost plus Protein and an ECA stacker Extreme. (ephedra)
Lunch was another Boost and a Leptopril. (diet pill that works!)
Snack, 1 can of Diet Mountain Dew. I haven't drank soda in years, but the carbonation makes you feel full and it is 0 cal. plus has caffine to boost your metabolism......I love DIET Mountain Dew! Plus ( Read more... )

I have been thinking alot. And maybe too much. But, I just want you all to know that I support all of you for the people you are. I may not agree with your path, as it may not be for me. But, it is not for me or anyone else to decide if you are doing things "unhealthy" or "healthy." I am happy for you when you are happy, as you are all my friends. ( Read more... )

Today, I started off with my slimfast. Then, had to do some shopping for Hana. So, I had lunch out. Just a small cup of soup with a lean turkey, tomato, and lettuce sandwich on white bread. I only ate half the sandwich. Not too bad, but wished it were nothing! Oh well. No more for the rest of the day ( Read more... )

I have kept under 500 cal. for today! Woo hoo!
1 can of slimfast, and 1 can of Boost with Protein.
Going for 0 cal. hot tea soon.
I am so happy. But, my two year old has been bringing me "bites" of food. I have been hiding them from her and throwing them away. I feel awful doing this. She hasn't seen mommy eat lately, and been trying to feed me.
It ( Read more... )

I got a new scale yesterday. It tells the weight and % of body fat. I lost 0.2% in body fat since yesterday. Woo hoo ( Read more... )