I was googling for some homework, a horrible briefing for my AS400 class, I wanted more background on some of the foreign affairs examples I was going to use and I came across this woman's blog. Her blog is titled "Beirut Update: War Diary's from a 30 year old woman...with love from Beirut". Reading her last entry posted a year ago made my heart ( Read more... )

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Your going through life and you think everything is fine until one day something goes wrong, and then another thing goes wrong followed by another. You fight to drag yourself out of this downward spiral of failure and disappointment but the harder you fight back the deeper you sink, till you can't move or breathe; because you're in over your head, ( Read more... )

Ship of Ghosts by James D. Hornfischer ( Read more... )

I am defeated and I know it. But in truth is it I who is defeated or my spirit? My morale is at an all time low and I feel like a disappointment. Reality is I am tired of where my life is and I am discovering I am not as strong or as hopeful and I once thought myself to be. I can't help but to also feel guilty for feeling so depressed. Today in my ( Read more... )

"Hope. Pandora brought the jar with the evils and opened it. It was the gods' gift to man, on the outside a beautiful, enticing gift, called the "lucky jar." Then all the evils, those lively, winged beings, flew out of it. Since that time, they roam around and do harm to men by day and night. One single evil had not yet slipped out of the jar. As ( Read more... )

I've neglected this journal for way too long. I've been meaning to write in it, its just been a hard past couple of months. Things are not going as smoothly as I had hoped for them to go with my last year and I feel that I keep having the floor riped from underneith me and right when I stand back on my feet again I only fall back down and have to ( Read more... )

Okay so I think the last time I posted in this thing was a billion years ago...okay maybe it was this summer but it might as well be a billion years ago. Everythings is going great..same ol' same ol'. ROTC is busy like usual. I was MWR OIC this past semester and now I am Vice Squadron commander. Its a jump up in rank but me being the ever so busy ( Read more... )

So here I am in Ceres once more. This summer has been one of greatness, yet I can't help but to feel emptyness. I went to and completed Field Training. I was a CTO at a JROTC summer camp where I was complemented on my Leadership abilities by Major Fink, the active duty personnel running the camp. Being a CTO was probably the highlight of my summer ( Read more... )

So it has come....Field Training...eek! Well actually its more like....Field Training? Tomorrow? REALLY? Time seems to be going by so fast that I don't really believe that I am going, I keep thinking that I am leaving in a year or so. Well here is my address, you better write to me ( Read more... )