the fact of the matter is, i worry about you...

i wait far too long in between posts...
i really should take care to say more, think more, write more

but i HAVE been opening up!
(yesterday my heart spilled right out! oh no!)
i has been painting again (doodling i should say)
reawakening the little art demon inside of mei adored the rain yesterday ( Read more... )

last night i dreamed

it began with me being in bed
wearing what i am wearing
stretched out next to allan as i stretch
but there was a woman on our fire escape
a black woman crouched on bare feet

she was holding one of our decorative glass lanterns
she looked at me and then smashed it
i woke upi felt good knowing that what had taken place was only ( Read more... )

don't let it slip through your fingers...

allan made pineapple pizza (from scratch of course) and it was divine
allan made love to me on the bed and it was divine

i sit at the window and it is divine

it all flows around me and in me and i don't even realize it half the time
feel itbounce your good energy around and around and around and make it ( Read more... )

Freedom

Beauty

Truth

Love

everyone should read the Tao Te Ching ("Dow Deh Jing")
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it's a miracle really...how the perspectives change
a dot is a pattern and yet it stands alone

my brain fires like it used to! it is excited to envelope the world again!
allan and i have been obsessing over Mariokart ( Read more... )

yesterday i ate monstrous amounts of food (i go back and forth between feeling hella sicka and hella hungry)

Friday i finally explained to me mum about Taoism

this morning i am sitting with an aching shoulder, but a pleasant feeling

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it's a strange feeling when your fingers feel full of words ( Read more... )

( erinology )

Level Up Erie!!

today i am sitting...being myself
and myself is skipping my Medieval Europe class
myself is wearing alot of eye makeup today (which is a big deal!)
myself ate waffles for breakfast
myself was given door beads (<---made of win) by myself's awesome husband
being myself is pretty a-ok :]

i envision color all around me and i believe ( Read more... )

we are God's unwanted children...

i painted a picture frame on Tuesday night and listened to records
my blinds were up and my mind was open
i used a stick to paint with
i wanted to see the effects it produced...

i have:-nesting birds in one of my kitchen windows (and i will show you pictures soon ( Read more... )

allan and i found a couch
although really i should say allan found it...
i havent actually seen it yet :]

but soon we can stretch out and cuddle and sleep and love make on our very own loverly couch!
and this of course...is a very big deal to both of us

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it's getting easier and easier to get through life without dispair ( Read more... )