I think I just had the worst nightmare of my entire life last night. It felt as if that was my reality, living in some disturbed world with a psychosis. It was terrifying...between the strange happenings, hallucinations within the dream, and seeing someone kill 3 people with a knife, hmm i dont know what puts it in for me. My great grandmother was ( Read more... )

On Thursday Dec. 10th, 2009 at 8:38pm was the last time I made an entry for this. So I thought it was time to make an update all thanks to Gabby for reminding me this existed still ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I have posted. Yikes! So much I should post on here but I haven't. So much has happened and is happening ( Read more... )

Well, I just got back from my three day orientation at BU, and it was good. I enjoyed it. I was a little shy for the most point with all the social stuff, but that's typcial of me. Eh. I did learn things and I heard stuff I have heard a thousand times already. It was fun and I'm glad I did it. Well, everyone has to do it, but I'm I did the early ( Read more... )

No more schoool!!

We need to do something. Call me or whatever.

I have been really tired lately and my mind is just always in the clouds and my hearing is just sort of selective I suppose. I'm trying to get through the year and it seems to get harder and harder. I just need to make the revisions on this paper and I will be good. Along with all that Trig. homework I haven't done, then I will be good ( Read more... )

Well, the year is slowly coming to a close. Things are wrapping up and coming to its end. I'm trying to pinpoint the feelings I am experiencing. I am finally becoming conscience of the idea that I will be leaving soon and that I will be off into a new world so to speak, and I really don't know how to feel quite yet. If this was asked to me how I ( Read more... )

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I want to do something today. Go outside or go to the movies or something.

I forgot to mention in all my selfish moaning and groaning. Today is a leap year. Whether that makes any difference whatsoever is beyond my care right now.

29.

Well, I certainly have fucked up. I am completely stupid. I am so out of practice on the violin that I just dropped my solo for this weekend. I am just in such a horrible mood that I cant even get my thoughts out right now. I hate myself immensely and I have truly failed at something. I have just stopped caring about pretty much everything. What's ( Read more... )