The real question is..
How did I become so nocturnal?

I said some stupid shit,
yesterday morning.
I'm pretty sure he's mad at me.
Story of my life.

In my defense,
I went to an all night screening of all
The Lord of the Rings movies,
did lunch with the grandma,
and a going away party for Kara,
which adds up to about 36 hours no sleep.
And, I had been drinking ( Read more... )

Christmas 2009.
First good one in a long time.
Happy Happy.
I love you, Bear -
for all the change you've inspired and supported.

I saw him today.
It never gets any easier.
I wonder if it ever will..

I'm in a good place these days.
More than I've ever been,
or at least for the past little while.
It's nice.
I like that I worry about my marks,
and Christmas ( Read more... )

Blink. Blink. Blink.

You fucking taunting little cursor.

I have this sudden new astonishment with hypocrisy.
How easy it is for people to have different standards for
similar situations..
Or the denial of their similarities all together.
Excuses. Standards. Expectations. Limits.

Hmph.

I think it's useless to teach kids 'fairness' and 'sharing'
in ( Read more... )

Well hello there,
Livejournal.

Interesting isn't it..?
What's that?
Oh, everything.

School makes us read all these books
splattered with all these themes
but, wouldn't it just be easier
to show us life instead?

Make us really smart.
It wouldn't be that hard..
to teach of how to think.
How to learn.
How to use our fucking brains..
Well, I guess it would be for ( Read more... )

It's really weird to realize how unhappy you are.
That, the one person or thing that used to mean everything.. 
just isn't the same.

But then what?
I can't bring myself to break away.
I can't hurt him.
No, I just don't want to.

It's really weird to realize you're not as strong as you thought.
To be in that place he once was.
Torn between what is right and ( Read more... )

I just don't know. Anymore.

Seems all too weird, but feels too right.

I can't even believe myself. Or the world.
How it unforgiveingly needs to pinch a dash of confusion into every step.

I am not who I was.
Though..
I have not changed.

Why such a strong connection?

Why are you only real to me now?

Timeing is really everything.
Balanced with the right amount ( Read more... )

 9 months.
in 10 days.
I love you,
babe.
xox

I wanna have a good time..
just like everybody else.
I don't wanna fall apart.

It's all so crazy now.

I'll be your rag doll, baby.