birthdays, wow. I want to say they kill me every year, because they do. There is a lyric from the band No Doubt's song, "Six Feet Under," that states, "Today is my birthday And I get one every year And some day...Hard to believe But I'll be buried six feet underground." So much pressure of our current lives is condensed and revolves like moons ( Read more... )

life stories, well im afraid i have too many. too many to tell, too many for people to understand. you may read them on these pages and say to yourselves, "These things could never happen to one person." And at that point, i half-heartedly ask you to believe. you will never know if i have really felt and seen these events, but you will read them ( Read more... )

im an insensitve, used, whipped tool. i care too much and dont give enough shit. im loud, obnoxious, and usually smell bad. i believe i have a tumor living in my head. i wake up choaking and most times i could give less to save myself. i couldnt make a boy talk to me for a million dollars. i cant here nor speak. i am not smart or stupid. my hair, ( Read more... )

i havent written in forever, but julie metioned it, so i thought i would, its not a real post but ive been really 'feeling' this song i guess, and im so happy to be feeling a song as great as this one ( Read more... )

im holding out because you know i cant stand to say goodbye

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I sprayed muddy sand in my own eyes ( Read more... )

i have a headache, and ive had it for a while. im glad that lately ive been able to hang out with ppl. now julies back, wich makes it better, but micheal has 2 more weeks. tuesday i m getting my bass! yay! ive been working out lately, which is fun. and working my fifteen jobs. and i paid off the guy from my church and my sister, so im good to go. ( Read more... )

so i went to the doctor and this is what i have to do ( Read more... )

so i visited my dad a while ago, and there was a hole with cement in it! thats good btw. and i thought, 'there is no way in hell that the gov't can be so fast",so i went back today, no that wasnt my dad,and a stone for someone waiting to die was put there! grrr ( Read more... )