i finally fixed my comp so i can get to web sites. my life has been practically upside down for such a long time now tht all this bull shit thts happening now is just a very average day in the life. i finally saw evan for the first time last sunday in over 1 year n then i saw him again today. chris n i have gotten so ridiculously close tht im ( Read more... )

so today is the day my tears wont stopflowing. you would think chris broke up with me or something (he didnt) but his mom is now awarded the cunt of the year award! she hasnt let him see me for about 1 week she doesnt like me and she is the only person i can say i hope dies. it hurts me so much tht she thinks she can effect our relationship i just ( Read more... )

so long time no type. my computer is gheay and i cant get to web sites. im in nashua right now at rivier college for the challenge program. i miss my book! i just finished reading tricksters choice by tamora pierce n now im on tricksters queen. my mom finally found out im not a virgin. took her long enough jeez. im still with chris. almost 3 months ( Read more... )

i did one of the best/worst things i couldve ever done. i took his virginity. like im glad tht were tht close n he wanted it w/ me but i feel bad. o well.

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i was sent to the hospital again for my cuts n they diagnosed me with adjustment dissorder its &i quote "this describes what happenes when you react more than usual to some stressor in your life. yuor reaction usually happenes within 3 months of the stressor.your reaction may be depression, anxiety, illness, or doing this you know are wrong(i cut) ( Read more... )

only i can find happiness and love so totally and completely n ruin someone elses life. i think i was a curse put on this earth to make everyone miserable but the few ppl immune to me. i love chris so utterly n completely its riddiculous tht my ex is like so not understanding but i guess i c where hes coming from ( Read more... )

so i think i breifly explained chris to everyone a couple of days ago. well now hes my bf and i can now face, as crazy as this mAy sound, i love him. i totally and completely love him more than i evr loved evan. idk how to tell him this though. i have moved on from my past. i want ot be only with him

i met a boy n i thinkg i might be in love with him. his names chris. i feel really different about him. like i broke up with steve for him but he doesnt know tht it was for him. n i really did like steve. i hope h e asks me out, he kissed my cheek tonight n i mustve smiled for an hour. o god what have i done

watchout world. i now own my own car n no longer hafta ask permission to go out driving YOUR UR FACE! BOO YAH