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Writer's Block: It's Too Late to Apologize
yea, it sucked major, i got my heart broken, and i was lied to and run around in circles until i broke. -
just cant get a break
so its no big secret my mom drinks alot, but its gotten out of hand. she told me i need to drop out of college n move out. heres the news flash, im broke as fuck. cant seem to get a job and have wicked bad credit. i just fuckin quit, everytime something good is going for me my fuckin family steps in. FUCK.
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a new chapter
so i started a new chapter in my life the moment i moved back out to NH and at first it was hard. i was clinging to my past with a desperation i cant even begin to explain, but at the same time i was trying to move on, essentially splitting myself in half. i had wanted to be friends with alan so much that i was emotionally killing myself and it got ( Read more... ) -
hm
everyone hits a point in their life where they need to look back on everything and start over. its not exactly the easiest thing ever, but there are harder things in life. i just recently suffered a broken heart from my first love, kay it wasnt so recent as much as it was four months ago and im incapable of moving on. but still everything since ( Read more... ) -
admitting defeat
so i thought i had found the person i could be with for the rest of my life. i was ready to commit and i was ready sacrafice anything for that one person, even my college, i was willing to transfer to be closer. apparently that makes me the stupidest person on the face of the planet because as soon as i got out here i was informed of his love for ( Read more... ) -
as i settle
my mind refuses to accept that this is where i am going to be for the next four months of my life, without my boi, its like if u cant see it its not happening. if i dont think about i cant feel it, and yet all im doing is thinking about it and my mind has a road block up preventing me from actually feeling anything. i wish i could go home now and ( Read more... ) -
college
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bending over backwards
so apparently somehow im supposed to find a way to bend over backwards and fit my boyfriends needs, and yet he can just go on his merry way like im nothing to him, im not important, and i dont effect him at all. i could walk outside right now and get killed and he probably wouldnt even go to my funeral, hed just be like o well tht was a waste of ( Read more... ) -
blah
so i apologized and stuff, but im still ify bout him going out tonight. i desperately need my own plans im going insane. i cant sit here anymore and yet i haveno motivation to do anything. im like fatally in love with someone who sees thru my half the time, doesnt understand me, and picks fights. im just so scared. its likr out relationship is ( Read more... ) -
not good enough
well im not and apparently there is no denying that. im also apparently a jealous whore and suck at life and should kill myself. yeah he said that. im also not good enough for him to want sex and he wishes he didnt like me. i guess it could be worse. i mean he could be going out with his ex wednesday night. oh wait, nevermind, HE IS. just make me ( Read more... )